Chapters: 5/12 Fandom: Once Upon a Time (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Evil Queen | Regina Mills/Emma Swan, Evil Queen | Regina Mills & Emma Swan Characters: Evil Queen | Regina Mills, Emma Swan, Henry Mills (Once Upon a Time), Snow White | Mary Margaret Blanchard, Prince Charming | David Nolan, Captain Hook | Killian Jones Additional Tags: Angst, Heavy Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Suicidal Emma Swan, Emma Swan Has Depression, Emma Swan has PTSD, Emma Swan Has OCD, Emma Swan Needs A Hug, Evil Queen | Regina Mills Needs a Hug, Queer Emma Swan, Bisexual Evil Queen | Regina Mills, Canon Divergence - Once Upon a Time Season 05B: Underworld Arc, Not Canon Compliant with Once Upon a Time Season 05B: Underworld Arc, AKA, Killian Jones Stays Dead, Past Captain Hook | Killian Jones/Emma Swan, Past Evil Queen | Regina Mills/Robin Hood, Endgame Evil Queen | Regina Mills/Emma Swan, Franz Kafka References, No Smut, No Smut There's Only Trauma Here, Slow Burn, Character Study, no beta we die like killian jones, I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping Summary:
She felt slightly guilty about it. After all, Regina was pretty sure ‘reading the diary of the person you co-parent with’ went against some kind of unsaid social rule.
Yet, the chance that Emma had written about her, had somewhere expressed how exactly she felt about Regina- (was she just Henry’s mom? Her ex-enemy? An ally? A friend?)- drew her in. She had to know.
or, Regina can’t figure out what she is to Emma. She reads the Savior’s diary to find her answer- and, maybe, to understand the woman who had single handedly changed her life yet was still a mystery to her at times. To her immediate regret, it isn’t the lighthearted confessions of a teen girl with crushes on boys she had expected. It’s the horrifying confession that Emma- sweet, brave, selfless Emma- hates herself deeply.
Season 6 divergent; every thing in S5 happened except Killian coming back and the trip to new york in 5x23. Title from Franz Kafka’s “Letters to Milena”
