While shopping with my 16 year old cousin today, she saw a dress and saidΒ βThatβs pretty, but canβt fit into that, Iβm fat.β
I did a double take, tried to explain to her that no she can fit in said dress in her size and is in no way fat.
This was not coming from a need to utter empty platitudes, I was merely stating a fact. Sheβs your normal sized teenager who is developing boobs, butt and belly.
She later asks me how can she wear that dress on account of her not having a flat belly. My reaction : shock and sadness. Is this what it has come to? Having a flat belly will mean that she isΒ βnot fatβ and can wear what she wants?
I told her,Β βYou can wear whatever clothes you like, it doesnβt matter as long as you feel goodβ. I tried to explain that the pictures she sees of people in the media or on Instagram are mostly photoshopped, altered or from a specific angle.
Felt like something got through to her from this. Wrong.
A friend was with us, Β saw a bikini, commented on how pretty it is but sheβs too fat to wear it. Said friend also struggles with body image issues and is slightly overweight (scientifically speaking) but in no way should be called βfatβ.
Left me speechless, because in the next second my cousin turns to me triumphantly and saysΒ βYes, see thatβs what I was telling you there are things fat people can and cantβt wearβ.
Tried to explain to them, that no thatβs not it but they were too far gone because they had validated each otherβs beliefs.Β
I also Β dislike that word as a label for people.
Feel heartbroken because this is what they aspire to and are constantly unhappy when somebody or they themselves mention their weight.Β
Heartbreaking. I also donβt know how to start altering this because ultimately the choice to accept and love themselves as they are, overweight or not, lies with them.
There is this sense of despair that I feel. Think, if two people here think like this, then on this tiny island, with no awareness of body positivity, how many other girls feel like this?
Wish I could tell my cousin and my friend that they are enough, they are beautiful and that beauty stems from their actions and words, not just a pretty face.
The pivotal moment in my journey to body positivity was when I saw the Embrace trailer by Taryn Brumfitt. I canβt emphasise how powerful it was to watch the documentary. Definitely propelled me miles forward on the path to accepting my body, excess weight and stretch marks and all.
Wonder if there is a way to spread this message of body positivity to young girls and women everywhere on our tiny island in the Indian Ocean. It is so important for them to hear that they are enough and to learn that it is ok to accept that.