#ihatethesystem

I got put in the SPED classes in middle school and I'm still trying to figure out why. I have tried asking the teachers I have tried using Google I have tried everything. Yet somehow I haven't found a reason. The one thing that it could be is me not liking school in elementary school, but they shouldn't allow problems from elementary effect me in high school. Remember I didn't even get that torture until 7th grade. 7th grade Is when I'd say that I started wanting to do work more and started being more social, so why ruin that for me. Its really sad for me to think about all of the missed opportunities I've had and all of the friends that could have been here for me. I have never been what they call "special" so why torture me with it. I also had a teacher gaslight me into thinking I will never get out and that I can't fix all of the pain because I'm too stupid, but now that I have mostly normal classes I'm doing better than what I was before. I don't even know what my IEP is for I haven't seen the paper and nobody has told me what my goals are. I don't even know if I really have one or if it's another reason to torture me. Plus I thought IEPs or (individualized education plans) were supposed to help students so why has it been just making it worse, because the truth is I work better when I'm happy and not when I'm depressed. If this ever becomes an assignment in school I could write a whole book on it because that how many flaws it has, but I'm gonna leave it short and simple. Help spread awareness of this if you, a friend, or a classmate is having this problem. Talk to them talk to people around them talk to their teachers their friends. Just please spread awareness and please tell everybody around you