#id5

So it was never surprising he didn’t feel he deserved you. He couldn’t provide for you, and he didn’t necessarily balance that out by being emotionally available. He was closed off as they came, rude and harsh and selfish, though anyone had to admit he’d earned that right. It wasn’t uncommon for him to isolate and try and push you away, a desperate attempt to protect both of you. But what scared him more than anything was the thought that it may actually work one day. That one day, you’d determine that he wasn’t worth the trouble. And then it’d be confirmed to him he was worth nothing, and deserved even less.