#i'm teddy

My will to live is way stronger then my will to die. To some this sounds depressing but I don't understand why. Most think I'm going towards a path of self destruction but to me, I'm simply on a path to rediscover who I am. Yeah I know everyone who may read this doesn't give a shit, I'm just giving a small peak about me evaluating my existence. I'm drained and I think I hit that point of no return, where teddy fades away and johnson is all alone. You're broken and show no feelings? Well I'm broken yet still I smile but it's not a competition cause in the end, we're both still fragile. My will to live is stronger then my will to die but my willingness to accept love got weaker as time goes by. I comfort people but rarely do they stop to comfort me. I guess they see a grown man but don't realize I feel like a small child abandoned in the rough streets. My will to live is stronger than my will to die cause my need to succeed is greater then me just letting time waste by. I'll enjoy what I can but I know soon i will have to leave. Whether it's by my hands or someone else, I will look back and say "my life was something special, to bad I had to leave."