#i should study

This may sound so self-centered, and it probably is.. But i absolutely hate when my friends do something I like better than me. I also completely despise it when I, for example, am really fond of nature, animals...esp wolves and cats, and someone also is to an extent. I always want to be better than everyone else , and I've stopped interacting with my friends as much because it makes me feel like shit. I hate that everything they do is better than what i do. I hate that they look better in outfits I want to wear. I want to be just like them but better,, Is this valid shivers,,,, its not valid at all and I know that, its so self centered, and absolutely horrible to see your friends as competition. But I just can't help it. I love and hate them at the same time. Stop being like me