#i rambled

okay, waittt i’ve actually thought about this before sdjkdkakzkfa IVYYYY OHH I STOPPED READING MY MANHWA FOR THIS!!!

i think nanami is super confused about cockwarming when you first mention it to him. because in his mind… if he’s gonna be inside of you, he wants to fuck you. not just for his own pleasure, but the idea of simply sitting there with him pulsing, you dripping, and nothing’s being done about it… he’s perplexed. but he’s definitely not opposed when you sweetly encourage him to just try it. for you, he’d try almost anything at least once within reason.

so when it happens and he experience that different level of intimacy first hand, he needs it. all. the. time.

SO YESSSSS HE WOULDDDD BE THAT KIND OF HUSBAND AND HE IS PROUD OF IT!!!!

i think it would be almost everyday, too. he comes home and you greet him with smiles and kisses. he’d have his face buried in your neck and just mumbles “wanna be close” and that’s all you need to hear. you’d probably try asking him a little about work while you take off your panties, but he’d simply say “let me feel you first, honey. please.”

OHHH AND IT IS SO INTIMATEEEE. sometimes he wants you laying your head on his shoulder so you’re chest to chest and he can feel the beat of your heart and the rumble of your voice as you ramble. sometimes he needs to see your pretty face and the expressions you make.

BUT NO MATTER WHATTT, i am so with you ivy bae, he is LISTENING!!! no matter how tired or stressed, he’s listening. not only because he asked in the first place, but he sincerely cares and is always interested in all the things that make you his perfect girl. doesn’t matter what the outside world has inflicted upon him when he’s being healed inside the perfect home that is you. you’re his home, not a house or an apartment. just you.

i just know he’s giving you sincere responses, but at someeee point, the way you feel and your beauty is too much. so he’ll kiss your nose first, then your lips. next thing you know, he thrusting upwards just the slightest bit. and when you deepen the kiss, he’s already one step ahead of you in making sure you have exactly what you’ve been waiting so patiently for

ALSO LMAO I SWEAR TO FUCKNG GOD HE-

STRESSED SCREAMS

Whenever I have the chance to complain I WILL and you just handed me the chance, this man. This motherfucker. HE DOES NOT SPEAK. I mean he speaks when he wants to make our girl flustered or angry or idek, horny?? but on a daily basis? one word. A GRUNT if he can. sometimes a fucking look. Sukuna is economic in everything, just like Toji, when I write him. They are fucking MUTE it stresses me out so much. In my head, on most of the things I write, they have a very fucked up past/overall background so there are a few ways of coping with a shitty childhood, trauma and such. I see people portraying him as aggressive, lustful, loud, sometimes god forbid me to see again - even dumbed down, but in my little head I take him as someone just reserved, like, if he can avoid socializing, he will. If he can avoid talking, interacting, he also will. Not because he's nervous, (although sukuna being unable to talk due to severe anxiety and being perceived as arrogant yum) just because it rarely brought anything good when it came to his own experiences. maybe he's a little misanthrope on top of being his hedonistic self, so he indulges only in the things he seems as worthy, a hobby, a career, an objective. I don't know if I'm making sense but now you are stuck here with me and I swallowed the key so take a seat we are doing this. I do think of Sukuna in modern settings as being neurodivergent, there are infinite aspects, infinite tells, senses, specters he can swim around without fully diving in, and one of them is how direct he can be, how he doesn't care for performance, only intent and objective, how analytic he is of everything that surrounds him, how he talks only when he thinks it's worth saying something/losing his breath, otherwise a glance will do. I adore to explore stuff like that when writing him (now it's the moment you find out Readers in my pieces are not self inserted, Sukuna is my self insert, the perfect puppet to canalize all my autism) and at the same time it's so damn infuriating. How can I make an interesting, heartfelt scene with this gremlin of a man if our girl pours out her heart into his cupping hands and all he can say is "I know" like? are you FOR REAL? But he compensates in the ways he act and treats the ones he love.

And upon writing this walltext I realize that I act like the characters have a will of their own and I just happen to be the vessel chosen to bring their little shenanigans into the light, so I'd like to say that this is the case, 100%, it will always be the case. It was the case every since I first started writing when I was 13yo, it was the case when I entered the oh so doomed life of a roleplayer, and it will be the case forever. Little silly characters will do themselves, I'll just canalize their bullshit into words, then I will place those words somewhere more people can point and say "ah, yes, dumbasses"

Also

personality of a sentient clipboard with a serial killing problem

the Island was not closed off from the world, but it was already remote just by location and yes, a little secretive. It was common knowledge that the Vaugardian monarchy were trade partners with the Island, but also just pinning down the material goods being traded, it seemed a bit lopsided in the Island's favor. There was acknowledgment of "knowledge" being exchanged both ways and yes, the Vaugardian layperson could probably find some examples, but the wish trading was not exactly being disclosed as 'yeah, this is the big thing the Islanders give'. Despite this, 'wizards' start coming up as a fictional concept based on Islanders visiting the capital--they dress strangely, appear rarely but are treated as important when they do, sometimes it seems their words portend miraculous events...

the monarchy eventually falls out of favor with Vaugarde as a whole. The Island withdraws support from the monarchy as the wish requests turn cruel and vindictive. A petty enough monarch might have made an attempt at retaliation, but they're facing enough pressure at home without opening another front--especially to an enemy who has a real chance of deciding you should be demolished and having their higher power agree.

as the monarchy fails, knowledge about the Wish trade starts to leak out, either from found documents or people trying to save their standing by bartering with knowledge.

this starts years of tension between the Island, Vaugarde, and maybe even countries beyond Vaugarde as details both get out and don't, rumors form about what was the Island's work and wasn't, etc., the Island being seen more and more as a mysterious threat until eventually...

Island crafts a spell to be forgotten so its people can live in safe obscurity. Unfortunately not everyone was on the island at the time. This may have been made as a rushed decision in reaction to a nearby country's threat, or it may have been long planned in complete secrecy even to the main population with the cold calculation that some would have to be sacrificed for the Island's safety.