I cannot overstate how fucked up I am today. Iβm operating on almost no sleep and Iβm pound for pound more fatigue than person. But we needed cat food.
So I went in and the worker did a little shudder as sheβs finishing up with the last customer.
βI had one of those days yesterday,β I commiserated.
βNo, it wasnβt them, I was just- itβs kinda heavy.β
I waited.
βMy coworker just passed a way,β she admitted. βI just saw her name on a receipt, it hit me kinda hard.β
I nodded. I was painfully aware how little energy was in my tank, and empathy uses so much, but this is not the kind of thing I am capable of brushing off. βHave you ever read Terry Pratchett?β
She looked very confused by the apparent non sequitur. Shook her head.
βHeβs a really famous fantasy author,β I told her. βVery funny. But in one of his books he has a system kind of like telegrams. And if someone dies while operating that system, their name is put into it. Their name goes back and forth across the line forever, and he posits that people arenβt really gone as long as we see echoes of them and remember their names.
βThatβs what itβs like when you saw her name on that receipt, right? Itβs her memory, still going.β
Her eyes got wider as I went on. When I finished she gave herself a little shake. βThatβs. Thatβs really beautiful, thank you for that. I. Wow.β
I smiled over my mask and left with my cat food.












