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Help! Such a small little word with a big massive punch! #howiseeit Asking for help was so humiliating for me. With my delusion of being better than everyone and my belief of not being good enough, I hated showing any kind of weakness (which today I know it to be humility). I'd rather fail than ask for help. And when I asked for help, it really felt like a punch in my face. I am a failure punch. Thank Goodness for recovery! Thank Goodness for the people in recovery. I asked for help with all my heart after a year sober, with the obsession to use streaming in my head! What a relief it was. Like the song, doors opened; one of which was recovery! Today my favourite sayings are: I don't know; can you show me? I don't understand; show me what do to; help me please. No shame, no cringing, no humiliation. Simply me being a student of life. 🛐🤗☯️🥰☮ #sobriety #soberlife #recoveryispossible #cleanandsober #recoverjourney #mentalhealth #cocaineanonymous #alcoholicanonymous #soberwarriors #soberliving #drugaddiction #addictionstigma #alcoholismrecovery #alcoholism #recoverywarriors #12steps #twelvesteps #12steprecoveryprocess #onedayatatime #ODAAT #soberissexy #mindalteringsubstances #addictionrecovery #recoveryrocks #cleanandsober #AABigBook #wecanrecover #thereisasolution https://www.instagram.com/p/CIpphTKgRkE/?igshid=1fdalr4dsqd3x

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Floating high can lead to a harder fall! #howiseeit During my drinking/using career, the higher I got the tougher the come down. So I never wanted to come down, I never wanted to face that moment. I pleaded to the universe to keep me up high. Even when the substances seemed to have stopped working, when I couldn't reach that high, I just kept on trying to climb back up there. In my early clean and sober time, I start "examining" and "analysing" the 12 steps of AA. Unknown to myself then, I kept chasing that high state, which I found in intellectualism, which I confused with spirituality. I floated for a while, higher and higher, and even though I was physically in a 12-step fellowship, I was getting high on my pink cloud, above it all. (If you have an AA 📘, read "Physician, heal thyself! Page 301). The landing was coming and I ignored it. So I crashed miserably wondering what had happened. I was at a crossroad: die, use or give recovery 100%. I was drawn to the latter! I've not have this Seven Pink experience again, thank goodness for that. I still overthink and intellectualise things, that's part of me. I'm also growing in my recovery, practicing what is being shown to me not to chase a high state but to ground me here, in today, in right now. It's ok to experience this pink cloud, just mind yourself on the way down. ☮🥰☯️🤗🛐 #sobriety #recoveryrocks #cleanandsober #peaceandquiet #quietpeace #soberlife #recoverywarriors #addictionstigma #diseaseofaddiction #alcoholism #alcoholismrecovery #wecanrecover #addictionrecovery #aa #ca #12steps #12steprecoveryprocess #recoveryprogress https://www.instagram.com/p/CIAK0AYgBqG/?igshid=pgjwvsaeyx4l

Is happiness really a decision? #howiseeit #rebelliousthinker #overthinker Happiness was always something I pursued. Writing this in past tense makes me think: am I not in its pursuit anymore? Is being in pursuit the same as missing it each time? Is happiness a goal as opposed to a moment in time? And if it's a goal, then what? This "choose happiness" principle landed on my resentment inventory yesterday, which I shared and discussed. My 1st reaction was: not that easy! As I can be a very black and white type of person in my mind I either am or I am not. Reflecting on it right now, it's not so b&w. Choosing happiness is not the same as being happy. Choosing happiness means standing up under the weight of sadness, adversities, anger, ect. It's asking for the help I need to get up. It's having the courage to say "that's enough". It's having faith that it will pass, whatever it is. Choosing happiness is not a pursuit! It seems to be a step towards solving a problem. It's an action by itself. So, today I choose Happiness! What will your choice be? ☮🥰☯️🤗🛐 #sobriety #recoveryrocks #recoveryispossible #recoveredaddict #recoverywarriors #recoveryprogress #12steps #soberlife #cleanandsober #recoverjourney #addictionrecovery #alcoholismrecovery #addictionstigma #findwhatworksforyou https://www.instagram.com/p/CH7H0rGgbSN/?igshid=g31tta5vl1nw

Did you know? Such a simple word with a massive impact 🛐🤗☯️🥰☮ #howiseeit #addiction #recovery #hopefaithandcourage #sobriety #soberlife #recoveryrocks #cleanandsober #recoverjourney #recoveryispossible #recoveredaddict #soberlife #recoverywarriors #recoveryprogress https://www.instagram.com/p/CHrqTMQg8H2/?igshid=1q8oz3f14a2q0

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