#hopefull

[ Things have been changing - I don't really know how to explain. How to give words to the chaos I currently exist of. ]

[ Things have been good. I'm growing. Slowly learning and unlearning. I've been trying, I've messed up and I've tried again. ]

It's weird, this new phase.

[ Self-destruction is the familiar thing, it is what got me through before but what I'm leaving behind now. ]

[ I'm still figuring out how to get through without it ]

[ I'm scared. I feel unsteady. At the same time I feel stronger, whole & more at ease than I have in a long time. ]

trust me

It does

It may not be today

It may not be tomorrow

But it CAN get better

So you got a keep going until it DOES get better

because it WILL get better NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES

I just spent over the last half hour hearing the story of a man who was just a nerd for technology, get railroaded by the federal government for shit that he absolutely did do, and he makes no attempts to hide it. He just fucked up.

He got sent to federal prison, and nearly not everything about himself, he absolutely lost everything he worked for going there at all

But he wrote on the top of the bedframe in sharpie, so it was the first thing he saw every morning

"IT GETS BETTER"

And guess what?

IT FUCKING GOT BETTER

But don't take my word for it

I decided to share a tiny snippet from 24 kisses because I'm still hopeful to one day share this WIP

Stolen kiss

Before he could stop himself or think, Obi-Wan silently walked across the room to settle on the edge of Anakin's sleeping platform. He ran a hand through his Padawan's short, spiky hair in a familiar, affectionate gesture, and it was almost as if he felt long silky soft curls between his fingers, the phantom sensation drawing him back to his earlier dream. Murmuring sleepily, Anakin pressed into his touch, seeking his closeness even in deep sleep, and though he should not, Obi-Wan stayed seated quietly in the darkness, his mind wandering as he played absentmindedly with the Padawan's long braid. Even in the dimness, he could easily see the outline of Anakin's high cheekbones and the long lashes that lay like soft feathers against his cheeks. His soft, full lips that could pout like no other looked relaxed and tantalizing in the faint light. Affected by the late hour and unsettling dreams, Obi-Wan wasn't sure of his own feelings and motives when he leaned down and pressed his lips to Anakin's. A soft gasp escaped the sleeping young man and Obi-Wan quickly broke the kiss, taking only a brief taste of the forbidden fruit that tasted horrifyingly familiar.

Chapters: 19/20 Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale & Stiles Stilinski Characters: Stiles Stilinski, Sheriff Stilinski (Teen Wolf), Derek Hale, Chris Argent Additional Tags: Brain Damage, past trauma, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, death of a parent (canon), Good Parent Sheriff Stilinski (Teen Wolf), First Meetings, Heavy Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Minor Injuries, Panic Attacks, Nightmares, Full Shift Werewolves, Full Shift Werewolf Derek Hale, Grief/Mourning, Literal Sleeping Together, Recovery, Protectiveness, Misunderstandings, Light Smut, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Smut Summary: