a smol drabble of one of kouâs unrequited love
heâd always had his ways of meeting the other, coincidentally or not. and always beneath a weeping willow, a place for his thoughts where no one could reach him that relaxed his soul in the times of desperate needs.
kou had believed finding someone else there would instantly ruin that peace, especially with when theyâd met there so often. it was his alone-time, his place to think for himself and to isolate his presence away from the world to be forgotten for a while.
but strangely, the other male had a better effect on him than the place itself. most days, no words were exchanged and itâd been awkward at first since neither of them left. but it slowly turned into something else, a time where he actually enjoyed the silence other than a hustling wind and flip of pages with someone else.
it didnât feel like he had a need to talk like with other people, to fill a space thatâd been filled with silence. with him; kou only wanted to be there and exist for a while beside him but not make his presence too known.
years passed and they slowly inched closer to each other, they even got each otherâs names. kou found his name sounding like an angelâs harp when resonated from the maleâs mouth. there was more between them than what met the eye, a friendship he treasured greater than anything in his life.
though one particular day, kou found him with legs up to his chest and head buried beneath arms in a worrying manner. it blared alarms inside his own head, and he quickly went to his side, rubbing helpless soothing circles on the maleâs back. no words came from him before the other talked the longest ever since theyâd met.Â
and with each passing word, his heart sank lower in his chest. they hurt. they hurt him. but he continuously listened, refused to let dark thoughts get the better of him and instead play the role as a friend who wanted to be there in his need. because right now, there was nothing else the other needed.
âdonât get discouraged, you can do it. i believe in you.â kou said all too encouragingly for the good of his heart.
"you donât understand how it is to have someone not look at you when youâre so in love with them.â came a bitter reply, and kou couldnât help but smile effortlessly in a small huff while turning to the sky.
â....yeah. guess i donât.â kou sighed, pulling the other in for him to lean onto his shoulder for support.
