#hobostyle

Anyways it was fun and interesting for sure. It was nice getting out and meeting people again .

I have a constant fear of losing my job. i used to not care, but now it's just not me. I have a lot riding on my job, and so does my son. it's difficult because I have to keep myself in check. most of the time I feel as though I'm hanging on by a thread at work. that I'm not doing enough, that I'm not doing a good job, that my coworkers dont like me...shit like that. ya know? most of the jobs I've has before this one made it well known that you can be replaced at anytime, and in ways made me feel as though my position was always in jeopardy. they can always find someone who will do more for less. now that feeling is kind of ingrained in me. it's a constant sence of anxiety. I cant remember the last time I felt safe.