#him though

So I’ve binge watched The Dragon Prince Season 2 and instead of seeing more of my boy Runaan I got this hot star magic elf with a voice that makes my knees tremble and sleezy bedroom eyes.

You told me you wanted me.

I took that as a “Go”.

I took that as an “I need you still.”

Still..

Still meaning you need me still, but had someone.

You didn’t say, “I need you and only you.”

I was clueless.

Why am I so fucking clueless?

Still am clueless.

Probably because I love you.

My sister recently got married and all I thought about

Was marrying you.

A soul for a soul, to become one.

Us as one would be so damn dope.

I could see it then.

Clueless as ever, you watch every story.

I figure you worry about me.

Wonder how I’m doing without you.

Classic clueless move.

Impossible was never in my vocabulary until I parted from you.

Stupidity never tasted my lips until I decided I needed you.

Lonely is what I’ve been without you.

I still look for you in my DMs.

Laffs*.

Lina always says she misses us.

Can’t invite you to shit because she knows I miss you.

I’m a fucking lame.

I want to be with a person who prefers another’s company.

A fucking lame, who’s called you to talk recklessly after hours of drinking.

You answered.

You talked.

You whispered.

Classless/clueless.

I’ve learned a little since then.

The sting of your name is there, but I ignore it.

I watch shows that we use to enjoy; doesn’t bother me like it use to.

I just need you and it sucks right now.

I cuddle with people I don’t even like, for a body count that keeps rising.

Yeah, I was clueless for so long it hurt.

Drowning my sorrows thinking it would work.

I’ve built an extra heart, just in case you come back.

“I need you still.”

I’m starting to think it was bullshit, but I don’t know.

I’m sleepy now.

I hate my one roommate.