#hiddenwitch

To whomever it may concern,

I want my house to constantly smell of potions, herbs, incense, and the four elements.

I want my house to be covered in candles (lightswich who? I don’t know her), plants (preferably herbs), crystals, and magical jars.

I want to be the type of person who will always give you tea when you visit, no exceptions. Who you can rely on to curse your enemies and help you through tough times. Who makes you feel at home wherever you go.

I want to dance in the rain and walk in the woods and swim in the sea. I want to talk to plants and breath in fresh air and constantly feel energy around me.

I want to always be prepared for a spell or ritual. Oh, you call for all of these herbs and crystals and types of wood? I have all of them! I never want to feel like I’m not able to achieve what I want because I don’t have the things I need.

I want to feel at home. I want to feel at home with myself, with where I am, with who I’m with. I want to be able to relax and know I’m safe.

But I can’t.

I can’t because I’m too young, I can’t buy the stuff I want or control the place I live or go where I please. Every aspect of my life is controlled by someone else, so how can I possibly control my own life?

I can’t because I’m not accepted. I can’t have witchy stuff all over my house because my parents/friends/roommate/partner wouldn’t love me anymore if I did. I can’t bless a friend because there religion goes against it, and I’m too scared to ask for their consent. I’m alone on solstices because I feel like there are no other witches I can celebrate with.

I can’t because I’m too poor. I can’t afford to get certain herbs and candles, you think I can buy your damn crystals? Your rare and obscure witchy supply’s? Sometimes I just give up because 50% of the spells I read need something that I don’t have.

I can’t because I don’t have the time. Have you heard of spoon theory? Well all of my spoons are used up! I’ve got people relying on me, money to make, and places to be. I’d do your ritual that takes 30 minutes if I had them to spare! I feel like a failed witch sometimes because I rarely do witchy things.

Sincerely,

Baby/young/hidden witches

PS

I’m not trying to accuse anyone, I love this community and everyone who is accepting and helpful. I decided to write this post because I feel like some of the things written aren’t talked about enough, or aren’t fully understood. I wrote this based on mine and other baby witches I know, experiences. If I didn’t portray something correctly feel free to message me and I’ll edit this!

 My granny with whom I live. Who HATES witchcraft and considers it kind of evil: We should go get a hair cut.  Me: Why? That's really sudden  Granny: The moon is almost new. If we cut our hair now it will grow stronger. I have already planted the basil we bought.