#help im scared

By the time you got onto your bus you started nodding off almost leaning against a stranger. Stopping to get off you almost fell once again into the pavement. Luckily the rest of your trip back home went smoothly.

Kicking your shoe off you went straight into your bedroom to shower. 

Crashing onto your bed you were about to fall asleep but remembered to text Dohoon.

How has your tour been so far? I miss you !!! 

Hope you had a better day than me. Ok imma clock out now!

With that you closed your eyes and tried to fall asleep it seems like this whole week was a daily routine flunk work missing Dohoon and the new girl taking all of your work.

Falling asleep you dreamt a fairly good dream that you forgot by the time you woke up. 

Going back to work after the day before was not an easy thing to do. How will you face the humiliation of your mistakes? And to think you had a big meeting today you could only hope not to mess it up.

At least today was a friday and then you can relax for a while. It was also one day closer till Dohoon is back.

Checking your phone Dohoon sent a message saying to take care and to tell him all about it when he comes back with an i miss you too . You understand the brief message as there touring and stuff but that still managed to cheer you up.

Once you get to your desk you see your boss giving the new person work and gesturing to your desk with his head mouthing this is what you need to do for today besides the meeting.

Since the meeting takes place in the afternoon you were able to get through most of the documents. Looking at the clock you saw you had thirty minutes until your meeting starts. Taking a deep breath you ran through your presentation one last time then headed for the meeting room.

Sitting down where your name tag was you got ready with your laptop to take notes and waited.Once everyone was there the meeting started.

Surprisingly you didn't make any mistakes and did pretty good for now while asking questions. The only thing left was your presentation.

You had made sure the presentation was seven minutes long to not bore the audience and made sure to memorize most of it while only having your important points on the screen. Standing up and walking to the front you presented and it went really well.

The only thing left was to skedaddle this place. Before heading out you overheard your boss talking to another higher up saying “ yes i know we might have to change a few staff members"

You then started to overthink it and wondered if they were talking about you or another person because really the other people at the meeting are a long way better than you. Their presentations  were really well polished more than yours was, they had a confidence that you didn't have, and really engaged with the other people there. All areas where you were lacking in.

Shaking your head, you packed your bags and told yourself to worry about that on Monday. Making sure you got everything you went down the stairs and walked out. As soon as you got out the cold air hit you like a shockwave. You shivered and waited for your bus to come.

You couldn't help but worry about what your boss said. What if it really was you? What if it was because of all of your mishaps these past few weeks really ruined your job. Although these were really minor mistakes you bit the insides of your mouth and pushed these thoughts to the back of your mind.

When you arrived home you quickly whipped something up and ate it. Now that tomorrow is the weekend you relaxed by watching whatever that was on your for you page.

Feeling sleepy you tucked yourself in and went out for the night.

Waking up at like 12 pm that was the longest you slept in for the week but like who said you stay up too 2am stressing out on work? No one.

After waking up you realized you forgot to finish that one report that you should've handed in yesterday.

Washing up and quickly walking- no running to the convenience store nearby to get snacks and food to power you through this report.

Rushing inside you started up your laptop and right when you opened it, the laptop was at five percent. Finding your charger you plugged the laptop in and started working.

By the time you were finishing the report your brain started lagging and made you type the same sentence explaining the graph. It’s fine though even with that lag you still managed to finish it in a day… 

Well it kinda took you the whole day to do it but who cares it's now done and all you got to do now is submit it.

Sighing you leaned back on your chair and relaxed for a bit looking at your ceiling. Yawning and stretching you typed up a short email for your boss explaining that “your internet was down and you couldn't send it in until now” that was a total lie of course but whatever you're going to get fired anyway.  

Getting up and walking around you decided it was time to eat a meal. Taking the food you bought earlier from the convenience store out of the bag you heated it up and decided you deserved to binge watch "Lovely runner.

While eating, you turned the tv on and pressed play.

After three episodes you decided it was time to sleep. Looking at the clock it showed that it was 12:43 .

Doing your night routine you got in the bed and tried to fall asleep.

But many thoughts stopped you from reaching dream land. You were too busy thinking about work and everything that you did wrong. What if the boss really decides to fire you from that late report? What if you weren't good enough? Would someone else really hire you with this reputation of being fired? What if- what if what if? What if that report you wrote wasn't up to their standards? Was the presentation you did yesterday good or was your brain tricking you into thinking it was good?

Finally, your thoughts slowed down from all that thinking you did of those multiple scenarios you made up. Slowly you drifted off.

The door opening woke you up but not enough to shake off that dream state. You wanted to get up but your body protested. You stayed in bed going back to where you left off in your dream when you saw Dohoon enter the bedroom. 

You forced your body to sit up and pulled Dohoon in for a hug. Holding him tight he started to pat your head and gently making you lie back down he whispered that he would be back soon.

Nodding you went back to sleep. 

When you went back to sleep  your dream was not the sweetest it was very sour. To sum it up you were being hated by everyone you had known or worked with. You were forced to walk where it only got worse. Their words were sharper and harsher. 

In reality you were curled up into a ball.

Dohoon knew you were not having the best week so he enveloped you and tried to comfort you for having a bad week. patting your back he combed through your hair and also fell asleep shortly. 

Waking up you felt  dried up tears on your face. Trying to feel your arm felt weak. Moving your arm off of Dohoon, you went into the bathroom trying to remember why you cried. 

Thinking back only helped you spiral more. Being mixed in work,stress and being sleep deprived was not a good combination. 

You don't know why but everything felt like it was crashing on you all at once. Yeah sure you know you're getting fired, this thought process made you think deeper creating multiple routes that meant doom for you. 

Starting to cry the overwhelming week made it worse. Thinking about anything and everything only made it worse. 

Hugging yourself sitting on the floor trying to stay quiet as Dohoon was still sleeping you didn't let yourself breathe.

Dohoon picked up on your crying because once you thought you were being quiet Dohoon unlocked the door and crouched right next to you. He pulled you into his chest. Enveloping you in his warmth.

Hey hey what's wrong? He said this in such a soft tone that made you think everything was going to be ok for a second. But that later erased itself from you.

You cried into his shoulder, his t-shirt soaking the tears. 

Dohoon knew you didn't feel like speaking so instead tried to comfort you as best as he could. He held you tighter as if you were going to leave him. He patted your back and murmured how it was going to be ok  repeating it until you heard him.

Try following me okay? Breathe in one two three, breathe out one two three. Breathe in. Breathe out. Hearing your sobbing slow down into hiccups.

He massaged your hands and traced patterns until you were finally calm again. 

Are you feeling better now? He asked, still holding on to your hand.

Mhm you managed to say well make a noise. Sniffing Dohoon handed you a tissue for you to blow your nose. Brushing his thumb to dry your tears he asked if you wanted to talk about it.

Nodding you went on a rant hiccuping at times and sniffling a bit. You told him how stressed you were and how you've been doing terribly at work. You told him every little bit that hurt you. 

While you were speaking he nodded along waiting for you to finish.

Then he asked if he could tell you something.

Agreeing you waited for him to speak.

“Don't ever let anyone affect you, you are you so what if you made a mistake it’s an opportunity for you to grow right? Mistakes are human, no one is perfect. You're the most precious thing in the world, you always try your best even when people force work onto you. It doesn't matter if you’re wrong, you're at least trying. No one will judge you if you hand in something late for once in your life. I swear everyone does it at least once. You know one day I messed up one of my lines on stage, right? ”

Nodding he continued “Yes the members did scold me a bit and were disappointed. But I never missed the lyrics again. Now it's something we can bring up and make fun of. They forgave me for that one mistake and I know they'll forgive you for those mistakes. Dont overthink it that much you never know whats going to happen worry about what you want to do today. Tomorrow is another day.  ” 

“ Dont worry please.. You are always enough, you did your best and you did what you could and that’s all you can do. ”

Letting Dohoons' words take over you grabbed onto him tight and buried yourself into him.

Messing up your hair he continued to ask you what was for brunch

Laughing at his statement you went out to some random cafe. Now smiling you walked down the street and mustered up the courage to say thank you.

Dohoon thank you. I love you. I'm sorry I soaked your shirt and should have never listened to those thoughts.

Smiling, he said jokingly that paying for the meal was thanking him. Adding on that he'll always be by your side.

Somehow he’ll find you and hold you in his arms. No matter how far apart you are he’ll be there. Somehow he will reach you. Boy were you glad you have Dohoon. Your heart and mind feels much lighter than before.

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