iām aliiiiiiive.
sorry for lack of updates i have no excuse except for the fact that i probably have 5 or 6 WIP BTS related fics rn pls help
anyway, thanks for sticking by and reading, it makes my kokoro go boom boom.
Pairing: Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin
Rating: from now on iām just going to tag M, though thereās isnāt much explicit stuff in this part
Word Count: 3,874
as a side note: iām going to try and stay to a weekly update schedule, probably every Thurs? i donāt even know how long this will be someone save me from myself
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āTook you long enough,ā Namjoon says once Jungkook and Jimin exit the club.
Cool air falls over Jungkook and makes him shiver. If Namjoon looked at Jiminās neck he certainly didnāt say anything about the obvious hickeys, so Jungkook just straightens his back and pretends that is definitely the case.
Taehyung, who is leaning on Jin for support, giggles. āHave you gone off kissing other men?ā He grins but Jungkook doesnāt return it. Instead, he stupidly stays silent, and Taehyung pouts. āThatās so rude,ā he continues, āI thought what we shared was special.ā
Jin looks down at his friend with furrowed brows. āWhat?ā He starts to ask, but Jungkook just clears his throat.
āHeās drunk, heās just talking aboutāā But Jungkook doesnāt finish.
Beside him, Jimin collapses to the ground, his eyes rolling to the back of his head. Thankfully Jungkook catches him just before his skull gets too familiar with the pavement, but heās dead weight in Jungkookās grip. His chest is rising and falling irregularly, as if itās a struggle to breathe. Jungkook recognises the clammy sweat thatās building on Jiminās skin, and panic is settling in the back of his throat.
āSheesh, and I thought Taehyung drank too much,ā Jin laughs, blissfully unaware of what was really happening to Jimin.
āHe needs water,ā Taehyung slurs, ignoring Jinās comment, and Jungkook has to physically hold back telling him he has no idea.
In the end, Yoongi is the one who discreetly helps Jungkook. He sobered up quickly (unlike Hoseok) and could see in Jungkookās eyes that something siren-y was happening to Jimin. They took a separate cab home, and Yoongi presses a napkin with cool water soaked up on Jiminās forehead. He sputters out a breath, but doesnāt regain full consciousness yet. Jungkook swallows hard.
āWhatās happening?ā Yoongi whispers so the cabbie canāt hear them.
Jungkook shakes his head. āI mean, itās possible because he hasnāt had alcohol in years, but something tells me thereās more.ā
Lips pressed into a thing line Yoongi asks, āWhat do you mean?ā
āThis happens sometimes, where Jimin gets his tail back without warning,ā Jungkook explains, āIt doesnāt happen very often, but when it does he looks like⦠This. Like heās a fish out of water.ā
Yoongi chuckles, wiping at Jiminās brow. āI mean, isnāt that the case?ā Jungkook doesnāt answer.
Despite Jungkook insisting that he could take care of Jimin fine on his own, Yoongi had stubbornly stayed at his side. He had kept a watch on Jimin as Jungkook started the water for the tub, and while it was filling he saunters back into the living room where Jimin is laid on the couch. His breathing has become slightly more even since Yoongi had given him a sip of water, but Jimin still didnāt stir beyond shuddering breaths and tiny gasps. When the tub is sufficiently full, Jungkook cradles Jimin princess style to the bathroom.Ā
He stops just before putting Jimin in when he realises heās still fully dressed. The jeans heās wearing are too nice to let a tail rip through them, so Jungkook sets Jimin softly on the toilet, confidently meaning to take Jiminās jeans off. Only he wasnāt confident, and kneels down, staring at Jiminās abdomen with bated breath. Sure, he had almost fucked the man in a club of all places, but he was overrun with whatever āspellā he was under, and now he was just sitting in front of an unconscious Jimin, completely vulnerable. What would he think if he woke up to Jungkook pulling down his pants? He shudders at the thought.
āYou know, leaving him slumped on the shitter isnāt going to do him any favours.ā Jungkook whips his head so hard it cracks slightly, and sees Yoongi standing in the doorway, arms crossed. He gives a curt nod towards Jimin. āGo ahead and toss him in, yeah?ā Yoongi actually sounds concerned, and itās a bit endearing.
What wasnāt endearing, though, was the prospect of peeling off clothes from an unconscious man. āItās uh, itās his jeans,ā Jungkook mumbles.
Yoongi squints his eyes. āSo?ā
āSo,ā Jungkook swallows, āHe really likes these ones, I donāt want them to get ruined by his uh⦠Tail.ā
When Yoongi laughs, Jungkook tries not to be offended. āAlright? So take them off, then.ā A flush no doubt creeps up Jungkookās neck, one obvious enough that Yoongi sees it because heās sighing and walking towards Jimin saying, āMove aside lover boy, Iāll do it.āĀ
For some reason the thought of someone else touching Jimin gives way to anger building in his throat. He bites down lightly on his lower lip and tries his best to quell the shakes heās getting from it. He knows heās being ridiculous, especially when Yoongi nudges him with his foot, probably saying something vaguely threatening and offensive, but Jungkook canāt hear it behind the thundering in his head. āRight, okay,ā he forces himself to say, forces himself to stand, letting Yoongi lean over Jimin as he goes to fiddle with Jiminās pant line. Jungkook tries his best to keep his breathing even, but it probably isnāt working as well as he hopes.
Yoongi talks while he works, āI really hope this is just because the idiot drank too much.ā He makes a clicking noise with his tongue when he finally gets the jeans unbuttoned and fly undone. āIāve been trying to look up information on this whole shit, but everything seems like conspiracy nonsense.ā He grunts as he lifts Jiminās hips so he can pull the jeans down the rest of the way. Jungkookās breath hitches and he curls his hands into tight fists. Yoongi continues, blissfully unaware of the inner turmoil Jungkook is drowning in. āI did find some shop though, just a little bit outside the city.ā
This piques Jungkookās interest, and serves as a distraction. āO-Oh?ā He asks, cursing his quivering voice.
Yoongi just nods, sliding Jiminās jeans down so theyāre at his ankles. He delicately starts to slip Jiminās feet out, one by one. āYeah, some shop thatās been around for a Jesus. Like, it was passed between generations or some shit I dunno, could be a fib.ā When he finally gets Jiminās jeans all the way off Jungkook is about to pass out from the strange anger (jealousy?) heās been harbouring. āIt was the only thing that looked even slightly credible, as pathetic as that sounds. They didnāt spout shit like sirens had three tongues and eleven fingers, though, so I thought that was probably our best bet right now.ā He nods again towards Jimin, āHe hasnāt told you much, right?ā
āNo,ā Jungkooks replies, voice slightly more stable. āHe doesnāt tell me anything really.ā
āHmm,ā Yoongi hums, āStrange.ā He folds Jiminās jeans and starts to walk out of the bathroom, squeezing Jungkookās shoulder saying, āAll yours, lover boy.ā Jungkook ignores the slight sexual innuendo laced in Yoongiās words.
After he places Jimin delicately in the water, he just stares again. He takes in Jiminās astounding beauty, his soft features and pink hair falling peacefully over his eyes. That jeweled and shining earring still hangs from his right ear, and Jungkook absently wonders why he never takes the thing off. Jungkook takes a seat on the toilet, rests his elbows on either knee and breathes in sharply. Yoongiās silent proposition rang in his head, the feeling that he could get some answers finally. It was almost like going behind Jiminās back, but Jungkook feels like he has the right to know. Perhaps there are things Jimin doesnāt know either, he thinks. Maybe this could satisfy them both.
A groan brings Jungkook back, hid whipping up from where he was staring at his lap. Jiminās nose is crinkling and thereās movement behind his closed eyes, but he still doesnāt open them. He shifts uncomfortably in the tub, and when Jungkook looks down his tail has in fact returned. When he trails his gaze back to Jiminās face, he looks almost peaceful. Content. Jungkook is about to leave him there when he sees his eyes open slowly.
āJungkook?ā He whispers, voice low from what was no doubt exhaustion. He scoots himself up so heās sitting more properly, and as he runs his hand through his hair he looks around blankly. āWhereā¦?ā
āYou collapsed in front of the club,ā Jungkook says, voice not as even as he would have preferred. āYoongi and I brought you here,ā he adds quickly, which warrants a sharp intake of breath from Jimin.
āI see,ā he says quietly, looking down at himself. His tail swishes in the water, overflowing the tub just a little, and when Jimin frowns Jungkook doesnāt think it was because he was drowning his bathroom again.Ā
āWas it because you drank too much?ā Jungkook offers when he realises Jimin is glaring almost resentfully at his tail.
Jimin shrugs. āI donāt know,ā he replies, but it sounds fake. When he glances over at Jungkook and their eyes meet, the latter notices how exhausted he really looks. It causes Jungook to worry on his bottom lip.
āDo you, er, want your legs back?ā Jungkook asks, unsure why heās so hesitant.
Jimin says nothing, but rather hums. āWhen was the last time you went swimming?ā He asks instead, and the question takes Jungkook a bit off guard.
āWh-What?ā He replies, having started to stand in anticipation of Jimin wholeheartedly begging for his elusive limbs back.
āSwimming?ā Jimin repeats, cocking his head to the side as he says so.Ā
For some reason, Jungkook is struck dead at the question. He opens his mouth a few times just to close it before finally deciding to say, āDoes when I dove after you count?ā
The small smile that graces Jiminās lips makes Jungkookās heart ache. āI suppose it could,ā he muses, then eyebrows shoot up in awe of something heās just remembered. āWhat happened when you did?ā
Ignoring the fact that this was something Jimin should have probably asked the night it all happened Jungkook says, āI nearly drowned.ā
Jimin grips the side of the tub with both of his small hands, turning his body to better face Jungkook. He leans over with what seems like curious anticipation. It must be what the gesture was conveying because he hardly says, āYes, yes, but before that.ā
So Jungkook thinks. He takes an awkward seat back on the toilet and rubs what he now realises are sweaty palms atop his jeans. He shrugs. āI held my breath for a long while, longer than I thought I could,ā he elaborates, rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. He watches Jiminās eyes dart all across the room, resting on one thing and then moving to the next, but never resting back on him. āWhy, exactly?ā He slowly asks, not sure if he even wants to know the answer.
āI justā¦ā Jimin begins, but stares down at his hands. When Jungkook looks down at them he sees Jiminās knuckles going white with the severity of his grip. And Jungkook wants to know, is really tired of being in the dark, but he doesnāt like to see Jimin like this, so he surges forward, taking Jiminās hands into his own.
āHey,ā he says softly, free one hand so he can tilt Jiminās chin up. His expression is unreadable like itās been many times before, but he just ignores it and just brings their faces closer together so his forehead rests on Jiminās. āWeāll worry about it later,ā he continues, āFor now Iāll do what I know I can do.ā
Jungkook presses his lips softly against Jiminās, and finds himself sighing contently into the kiss. Despite the fact that heās done this many times before, despite that he was grinding on Jimin not even four hours ago, this kiss feels different. Perhaps itās because Jungkook is sobering up rather nicely (he had chugged about three bottles of water worth so he could watch Jimin more closely), or maybe heās letting himself feel the things he keeps trying to push away.Ā
Jimin grips Jungkookās hands tighter, tilts his head so heās at a better angle, and kisses back. He presses himself farther up into Jungkook, parting his lips as an invention for Jungkook to deepen the kiss, but he doesnāt. He swipes his tongue along Jiminās bottom lip and gingerly takes it in his teeth, but itās only a soft bite before he releases it, more wanting to feel Jiminās warmth against him rather than anything else. Jimin whimpers underneath him, squirming slightly in his grip, like he too is feeling something other than the friction theyāve been sharing. The moment Jungkook thinks of this, his eyes flash open in midst of the kiss, sees how Jiminās eyebrows are laced in a purely blissful expression, and pulls back.Ā
Itās rather sudden, he realises, but the thought that something was blossoming between them terrifies Jungkook, and heās not even sure why. āYou⦠You got your legs back,ā he says quickly, not even sure if heās right. A quick glance into the tub tells him he is, and he sighs inwardly of relief. He doesnāt know how else he could have explained himself snapping away from Jiminās face like it was on fire.
Jimin blinks at him, but before he can say anything Jungkook hears a soft chuckle behind him. He already knows who it is, but the look on Jiminās face is just the cementing the fact. His eyes have blown wide and a new flush attacks his cheeks, and Jungkook would laugh right back if he didnāt feel the betraying colour reach his cheeks as well.
āI always wondered how that whole dynamic worked,ā Yoongi says from behind Jungkook. Jimin has looked down at his hands still gripping the side of the tub. For all his prowess and claims of badassery, it was amusing to see him so flustered. āCan anyone do it, or does it have to be Jungkook?ā Yoongi asks and the question boils Jungkookās blood like before.
He stays watching Jimin instead, who shakes his head from where heās staring down at his small hands. āIt can only be Jungkook,ā he says softly. Jungkookās heart flutters at the knowledge, however, and he hates himself for it.
Yoongi makes a humming noise that was no doubt trying to be condescending. āWell damn,ā he says and Jungkook finally turns. Yoongi looks absolutely exhausted beyond words, and Jungkook feels only a little bad that he keeps getting mad at him. For stupid reasons too, ones he doesnāt even fully understand. āListen, Iām going to go, Iāll text you tomorrow,ā he says and adds, āIām fucking exhausted.ā
Jungkook nods but doesnāt say much, telling Jimin under his breath that heās going to see Yoongi out. When the two of them get to the door of Jungkookās apartment, he worries on his lower lip before saying, āAre we bringing Jimin with us tomorrow?ā
Yoongi breathes out, the sound of air whistling past his teeth. He bops his head back and forth as if heās lost in thought, and maybe he is, before he just shrugs. āI mean donāt you collapse without him around?ā
For some reason that comment makes Jungkook flush ever so slightly. He rubs the back of his neck sheepishly. āYeah, I suppose...ā
āItāll be fine,ā Yoongi assures him, slapping an affectionate hand on his shoulder. He tries his best to genuinely smile but Jungkook doesnāt think it really reaches that. āJimin probably has some questions himself.ā
At that Jungkook nods in agreement, forgoing telling Yoongi that the night he found out about Jimin he was doing just that, only asking some entity Jungkook has no idea what it could be. āYeah,ā he says quietly instead, and gives Yoongi a quick hug goodbye.
When the door shuts he finally feels like he can breathe a little easier, and rubs a tired hand down his face. He doesnāt even know what time it is, but it feels late. Like, really late. Like maybe itās even already five in the morning. He chances a quick glance at his clock as he walks back towards the bathroom and it reads three a.m. Not as bad as Jungkook thought, but still probably not that great. He approaches the bathroom and upon seeing it empty, figures Jimin probably went to go get dressed. When he walks in his room, he sees just thatāa Jimin sitting cross legged on his bed and staring intently at the drawstring on his sweatpants.
āThose are huge on you,ā Jungkook finds himself saying, laughing under his breath at how tight Jimin has the drawstring pulled.
Jimin looks up and smiles, but it doesnāt quite reach his eyes. āNot my fault youāre a giant,ā he counters and smirks. It fades quickly thought as Jimin struggles to say, āCan I⦠Sleep with you tonight?ā
Because Jungkook has the mind of a fifteen year old his first thought is Jimin wants to have sex with him. And in all honesty, of course Jungkook would. He would fuck Jimin until he couldnāt speak, voice too hoarse from moaning in both pain and pleasure. He would bite at his neck, mark him as his, and my goodness how pretty Jimin would look under him. Not realising he started to breathe a little heavily and stare at the floor, he jolts his head back up to meet Jiminās gaze, of which is one of confusion and what looks like regret. The regret is probably from asking Jungkook if he could sleep with him, which he now belatedly realises probably means actual sleep. Jungkook swallows.
āSure,ā he manages to say. He doesnāt bother to ask Jimin why, just quietly goes to remove his clothes. He makes a point to face away from Jimin as he does so, despite the fact that the guy has literally sucked his dick. He shivers at the thought and tries to tell himself itās because heās removed his shirt, but he knows heās lying to himself. He wonders when heāll stop with that.
After Jungkook crawls into bed, Jimin literally dashes at him, immediately pressing himself against Jungkookās side and nuzzling his face into the crook of Jungkookās neck. Heās not sure why heās surprised at the action, but carefully pulls the blanket to cover them nonetheless, pressing a wordless kiss to the crown of Jiminās head. Jimin trembles on top of him, so Jungkook holds him close, humming under his breath until the steady rhythm of Jiminās breathing tells him heās asleep. Jungkook is quick to follow.
Itās been a while since Jungkook has dreamed. Of course people tell you that you dream every night regardless of whether or not you remember it, so maybe itās just been a while since Jungkook has remembered. He finds himself floating in what just seems like the air or maybe the clouds, staring at a scenery of white threatening to consume him. He feels cold, and when he looks down heās not wearing a shred of clothing. He yelps, but it doesnāt come out quite right, like heās underwater.Ā
He turns his head wildly, trying to figure out where he is but thereās nothing to tell him. He starts to feel panic boil up his throat but he tries to suppress it as best he can. He wiggles his legs to get a feel of what sort of suspension heās trapped in, and finds they move easily. So thereās no resistance, Jungkook thinks, and tries to wiggle his fingers just to be sure. They are the same, and it just further deepens his confusion.
āHow long do you think you can hold out?ā A voice asks, but Jungkook canāt see where itās coming from, nor can he ascertain who it is. āItās pointless, you know, to resist it,ā it booms, and it sounds angry this time. Jungkook is finding it harder to dampen his panic.Ā
He swirls himself around, now feeling like heās treading water, and sees a shadowy figure far ahead of him. Heās not sure how far, but heās content to keep the distance as best he can. He breathes in sharply, trying to make a shape out of the dark abyss.Ā
āDo you still not get it?ā The voice coos, and it gives Jungkook goosebumps. āOh,ā the voice says, drawing out the sound, āHe hasnāt told you.ā The figure slowly approaches Jungkook, of which he canāt seem to move away from. Itās like heās trapped in a cage, and when he tries to speak nothing comes out but choked bubbles. He doesnāt understand; heās scared.
āPerhaps I should show you,ā the voice says, becoming louder. The shroud covering it fades, and Jungkook sees what he thinks is a siren, but itās not right. Thereās what looks like a distinctive shark tail instead of the beautifully scaled one that Jimin has, and itās covered in scars. When Jungkook looks up he sees the personāthingāhas hollow eyes, devoid of any colour and any discernible pupils. Scars cover their face as well, and as Jungkookās gaze trails down their torso, he breathes in sharply. The figure is wearing a shawl that covers most of them, but Jungkook can clearly see deep gashes and what might be burns on the exposed part of their arms. When he looks back at their face, theyāre grinning widely and it shows off razor sharp teeth.
āHow sad,ā the thing taunts, āThe poor lamb doesnāt even know.ā It nods to Jungkook, the grin not fading even slightly. āWell go on then, look down and see for yourself.ā
Jungkook doesnāt want to. He really, really doesnāt, but thereās a betraying part of him that looks down. He looks down and feels like his pulse might shoot right out of him: he has a tail. Itās a tail just like Jiminās, and itās on him. He has a tail. Belatedly he thinks, heās a siren. The realisation chokes him and he frantically claws at his tail as if it will make it go away; it only serves to cut his hand slightly.
The shark-siren hybrid thing (thatās starting to get on Jungkookās nerves) laughs at him, and it rings off his eardrums. Makes his blood turn cold. āAt least you finally see now,ā it says, and when Jungkook slowly lifts his head it isnāt smiling so much anymore, but something coy still tugs at the edge of their lips. āCongratulations, youāre a siren now.ā It reaches out a hand and rubs a thumb across Jungkookās lower lip as it says low and ferocious, āForever.ā
Jungkook wakes up with a shriek and a cold sweat.
Beside him Jimin stirs slightly, crinkling his nose, but doesnāt wake. Jungkook looks down at him sharply as he tries to remember how to breathe, tries to remember anything and everything Jimin has told him about this siren business up until now. He remembers him saying this spell was more a virus, and Jungkookās immune system was failing. In his head heās trying to desperately recall anything Jimin has hinted at, but nothing makes a connection to his dream.Ā
But thatās all it was, right? Just a dream. Jungkook lays back down, feels his breathing evening out more, and stays wide awake until he hears birds chirping on the horizon.Ā

















