#heatsick

The shape of your lips

Make me weak

Because I know

Every truth they bury deep

Tangled with the lies you speak

To keep yourself whole

You struggle to breathe

As you hold back your desires

Suppress them in favour of appearances

Still they climb your throat as you sleep

I hope you find kindness

I hope you find compassion

I hope the next time someone hands you

A vulnerable piece of themselves

You consider giving back in kind

Maybe you’ll reconsider

These walls you’ve built

Behind which you live a martyrs life

In self imposed exile

This distainful curse of vanity

Doesn’t suit your heart

Or the love you keep stifled

You whined, writhing on the sheets as heat washed over you yet again. Your heat had yet to even fade, and you were so exhausted. You knew you were close to overheating, but the throbbing need kept you rooted to the spot.

“Christ, you’re burning up,” Crowley stated, His gentle hand on your head.

His pheromones filled your nose, his scent clouding your mind even more. And it hurt, your whole body hurt, but all you could think of was this alpha, being his, completely his, and-

“Alpha, need you, please please please.”

“You need to calm down and rest. You’re so heatsick, you’re not thinking straight.”

It killed him to say it, but he had to do what was best for you. And while you were a lovely omega, and you smelled so damn good and so perfect, he couldn’t keep you as his own.

Paint Groove #5 "Space Explorer"

1. A Rainbow in Curved Air - Terry Riley

2. Fur Seelenbinder - Kosmischer Laufer

3. Andro - Denis Wise

4. Yzx - Thulebasen

5. Taxi Zum No - Heatsick

6. Horas Tristes - Mueran Humanos

7. The Word II - セキトオシゲオ (Shigeo Sekito)

Steven Warwick - CTFO

Nadir / PAN / 2016