you guys have no idea how long i thought about these designs dude. MCD Rebirth Aph was already figured out ages ago, shes the version ive drawn the most atp. but to get the distinction between ALL of them took a long think from me.

its also why Void Paradox Aphmau is uh.. not here. shes very different from all the other Aphs, thats for sure. but its also hard to just. get her out. i want to make sure i draw her right. shes not like the others, where its easy to figure them out and just create a silly design. no, she actually needs the right nuance from me.

i had similar feelings in regards to Heart Point Aphmau, which is why she comes across so differently from the others. HP and VP Aph require something necessary from me, and that takes time to get out and onto a page.

DONT GET IT TWISTED THOUGH!! i absolutely have art of VP Aphmau lol. its just.. unconventional in comparison.

ok, my art is already a little unconventional lol. ill show you guys a little so you can understand a bit better (in order of oldest to newest)

my design for her has uh. changed a LOT ToT

like i wanna land on SOMETHING that feels right. but because of my brain, i keep changing things or mixing up details. and its REALLY easy to mix up details when there are. SO MANY DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF APHMAU

we have early MCD Aphmau--who i havent drawn yet--regular MCD Aph, literally just. IRENE. late MCD Aph, MCD Rebirth Aph, PDH Aph, FCU Aph, Mystreet Aph, WEREWOLF Mystreet Aph, Void Paradox/MMW Aph, Mermaid Tales Aph, Heart Point Aph, ASMP Aph, freaking Alternates Aph, and probably a LOT MORE I DONT HAVE LISTED DOWN.

her design has ALSO changed a lot. so i have to consider all of them all at once and where the changes are/should go

NOT TO MENTION. AVA. Who looks a LOT like Aphmau, but certainly isnt/hopefully isnt/SHOULD NOT BE an Aphmau variant. Now, i have Ava's design in the bag. BUT, BECAUSE SHE IS PHYSICALLY. PRETTY APHMAU LOOKING. I GET THE HAIR MIXED UP A LITTLE. and. oh man. it hurts. it hurts drawing ANY of this stuff wrong. it hurts forgetting how my character designs are supposed to look. so im CONSTANTLY going back and forth in my sketchbook, desperately hoping i dont change her design halfway through cause i forgot how i drew her (you will notice this in my PDH Aphmau art now btw. I GAVE HER THE WRONG BANGS AT ONE POINT. IT HURTS UAGHEBDKDHD)

omg this rant became so unrelated to the actual designs and why i made them. oughvekdh i dont wanna clog this any furtherr.. but i wanna sayy it ToT

you know what. maybe later. DEFINITELY later lmao

thank you so much for reading this alshskdbeidgdoe, its greatly appreciated ;-;