#healingisaprocess

I have been working with children as a caregiver for almost 14 years -practically for half of my life. They have always been a part of my life. They are the true healers because they continously teach me to reaccess my inner child energy. To be joyous towards life, no matter how hard it may get. To never stop playing or being foolish. To keep taking risks, being courageous and to go for adventures. To collect things in Nature and dance. To move, to shake my body out and to laugh, to cry,to feel my emotions on the full spectrum. To never lose hope and to keep my dreams big. To follow my intuition and to speak and act from the heartcenter. To cherish Nature and to dance to the rhythm of life. To get creative whenever I can and to never lose connection to my creative energy, which is the Source of my Being. They truly are healers. And I am so grateful for having them in my life, for their lessons , for their reminder to always realign with my inner child, to see her smile. To be there for her. To reparent myself. Cause I know that when she is smiling and truly happy, than I am , too.

Left: March 2016; the first time I actually paused to listen to that little voice tugging on my heart and thought about what my future might hold if I was true to myself. Right:November 2018; almost an entire year of publically speaking my truth and being my true self. The difference is night and day. I no longer dread the start of a new day, wishing I had died and not been forced to open my eyes for another numb, bleak, grey day with nothing to look forward to. I have a renewed sense of self and of hope that now has me cautiously excited about what each new day will bring.

I am so grateful to live in the country that I do, I am grateful for the resources that are available to me for minimal costs. Canada is an amazing place to live as a Transgender person. I am so appreciative of all of the supports and the continued commitment of the community to learn and begin to accept me and my fellow Transgender siblings. I know it isn’t that way everywhere, which breaks my heart. On this transgender day of remembrance I want to take a moment to thank all who have gone before me, and continue to fight for a voice and a place to feel accepted by sacrificing careers, housing, education, family, financial security, personal and mental health, and even their lives in order for the moment I am currently finding myself in to be the reality of the achievements you have accomplished. I will never have to struggle as hard or fight as valiantly because the ground work has been laid in blood, sweat, tears, tiaras, oversized hoodies and sequins. I love each and every single one of you. Thank you for what you have given to mine and future generations. Your tireless efforts have not fallen on a numb heart.

Thank you for allowing the safety for me to be who I truly am without fear for my life. I have picked up the torch where you left off and am ready to continue to strive for a brighter future by letting my light be a beacon of hope.