#he's deteriorating...

I've been reflecting about my art again lately. I'm gonna leave some thoughts here. It's mostly for myself to look back on, and this may be a little TMI lol. But maybe someone reading this will want to know or find it helpful in some way. Feel free to stop reading here if desired.

I won't get into the details of why, but it's taken a long, long time and a lot of effort and pacing over time to get to this point again. Being able to put the required energy in and enjoy the process again, I mean.

Even after I started sharing art again after so long of keeping it carefully to myself, it took a while before I started to consistently be happy about what I made. I don't know if it'll last, but more recently, my confidence in my work has started to grow, too. Actually, I think I feel better about my art right now than I have since I was a kid... And while I've improved a bit over the last couple years, I don't think that's why. I think..

I think my mindset about my art has changed. It's not like I don't dislike things about my art or look back and cringe at errors or things I've improved on since, (I think being your own biggest critic is probably just part of being an artist lmao) but I just... like what I make and like making it, more often than not.

I get frustrated when I can't do much, or when I'm struggling with a piece... and I of course only post the best ones out of the things I actually would want to share... whatever you see online is always a curated view right? But still. I'm happy about it.

I appreciate anyone whose left a comment or enjoyed any of the stuff I've made over this time. Even if over here, it's been a lot of silly pony stuff haha. If you told me a couple years ago that I'd be drawing pieces like this with backgrounds and lighting and humans (and that they'd turn out well enough that I'd be proud of them) I'd have hardly believed it.