#he writes

new motivation to finish book is to finish just so i can start over. i know starting over is the book killer i gotta finish the draft i started first. its better to get it all out and sorted and THEN start over instead of starting over a million times. but FUCK theres so much i wanna change already. must push forward nonetheless. finish asap so you can tear it down asap

me mid jerk off going oh wait you know what my morally ambiguous age gap romance needs? relationships with alcohol that dont necessarily count as alcoholism but are certainly not healthy. what another great idea from ME

mystery message from me a 4am about my book that i don't remember jotting down at all. uhhhhhhhh thanks

for the record the real thing that killed the gabematt wip was timing. i'd gotten like 1.5k into it and then went on my wedding/vacation la trip and by the time i got back the motivation was elsewhere. not finishing stuff felt a lot less shameful once i accepted that luck of timing is an unavoidable factor. anyway i DO really wanna edit and post that 1.5k because it WAS good i think

i need time to sit down and grind out 1k works of my book SOON or im gonna fuckin explode

goals for my age gap romance is for some ppl to see it as a beautiful love story and some ppl to see it as gross n predatory. where's the fun if its not at least a little morally ambiguous !!!!!!!!

thinking about how this hickey i wrote in my book simply bc i find it hot and sexy is now becoming a significant plot device. thinking with your dick will lead you incredible places never stop