i literally donât know what to say but all i know is i shouldâve listened to that anon when they told me that MARTIN was the one who had been harassing deerlottie at the time but anyway! exposing dorkytboy/dorkytboyagain/soggykittylottie/freakytravismartinez bc ur a weird ass bitch!
so i think i started talking to him like last year(?) in november or october and really he was the first to start talking to me in my asks box. At first i was like charmed by him but i wasnât like in a relationship with him. when we eventually did start talking there was this whole honeymoon phase and yk im excited bc obvi itâs my first t4t relationship and first relationship since breaking up with a previous ex.
so nothing really happens blah blah blah until im made aware of his strong hatred for cnc and please dont start the bs in my comments idc if you like it or not thatâs not my business. anyway! i found it weird how he would just randomly jump and ask me if i was into it and im like no because like i said idc abt it that much.
so first and obviously, hes hella immature and i could never be serious with him.. not even when we were breaking up.. it seemed that he would just not even try to tell me what was going on w him and i wasnt even gonna try to figure it out so obvi i returned that energy bc what!
here we can see one of the examples of him being odd for lit no reason like youâd think i did something for him to say this whole time it was unprovoked! again we will see another example of him being a weird ass bitch!
this is me ending a conversation that i had no interest in because i did not want to talk to him, and instead of me engaging in a conversation i didnt feel like having and then being an asshole, i decided to be the bigger person and just go to sleep before that happened. this is something that happened frequently before we broke up. i always had to be the one to end a conversation when it was becoming toxic because he was being weird and that energy was lit draining me and making me enter depressive states. and when i noticed this in my mind i already kinda decided i didnt wanna be with him anymore, so until I found the courage to break up with him, i was just cordial with him bc atp i didnt have anything to say to him.
at some point when we were starting to get really toxic, he went on some odd ass travnat craze and it drove me nuts. before this we also had a really horrible and stupid argument because we were talking a little and i was abt to shower so i told him that and he asked me why do i shower everyday and im like.. bc ur supposed to like what and heâs like âhold dry skinâ and so obviously im like itâs dirty not to shower everyday bc thats how i was raised and that my skin wasnt dry bc its not and i stay hydrated. then he turns around and says you should shower two/three days out of the whole week.. đ·đ€ą bitch ur pussy is sour and ur ph is fucked up! anyway! and then i called him dirty and wtv wtv. throughout this whole time he was being so unserious. so then he was like u donât start stinking after one day and he called me the r slur so im like âoh the slurâŠâŠ.â and he goes âthe slur i can say ohâŠ.â and regardless its still weird for him to call me that and i called him out and he called me sensitive. so im like âso im sensitive bc i think its weird that u say slurs with negative historical connotations? just because you can slay a slur doesn't mean that you should.â then i said âi can say the n word bc im black but i dont because its a slur and it has a negative historyâ so obvi i gagged him but he still decided to keep going bc it wouldnât be him if he didnât get the last word. he continues to call me sensitive, saying things like how does this hurt me and he kept insulting me because he wants to say slurs.. right.. and then he tried to get me to see about the f slur and at the time i didnât label myself as gay so i didnât say it, and i didnât wanna say it. after this i tried to end the conversation by saying âso obviously you're not going to stop saying slurs regardless so what are we even talking about like who r u feeling likeâ and ofc he sends a pic. i tried to end the convo but it kept dragging so i tried to leave and he kept talking. since that time he continued to say the r slur and make fun of me in a way bc i didnt like him saying that stuff around me.
so the conversations were like this and when i told him i wanted to break up with him he literally said âbut travnatâ while i was being serious. and that quite literally blew me out of the water so obviously i crashed out and he kept giving me bullshit responses and sending me pictures when before this i asked him to stop doing that when i was being serious bc it was very immature. i also questioned if he was actually the age he said he was because for an 18 year old he seems to not understand the concept of time and place and obviously is very immature. i explained to him that in normal relationships people dont just go from having very heated conversations to trying to be normal because it isnât healthy and i just didnât really like him anymore because him being so odd within the fandom i hyperfixated on for so long just turned me off. i donât have exact screenshots but hereâs basically a summary of what happened.
when we broke up i didnt immediately block him, which i now realize is a mistake. even though we were broken up now, he still tried to sext with me multiple times to the point where i tried to be nice to him about letting him know i didnt want that anymore but he kept saying sexual things to me and i literally had to beg him to stop. after even more arguments came about and him being even more weird to me, i finally grew a pair and blocked him. i saw him being miserable on the tl and i literally could care less because thatâs what he gets. i regretted it at first because i felt so lonely but now i dont regret it at all! he deserves everything thatâs happening to him rn because hes a bad person and hes immature as hell! every other time i saw him posting when i was using a friends acct he was still being weird and surprise surprise heâs racist and he sends ppl rape threats! đ„° no wonder why he deactivated!