#hawrites

yjh: our footprints will fade slowly on the soft sand. they'll be washed away by gentle tides. i'll marry you with the sea salt winds.

you don’t see your dad all that often. you visit on the holidays, you call every other night, you send him stupid memes he doesn’t quite get or play video games together when he’s not busy with clients and you don’t have too many assessments. 

you’ve had arguments about his line of work before. don’t get me wrong, he doesn’t say too much - confidentiality you know - but as anyone with parents that work in confidential workplaces knows you typically get to know just enough to have Opinions. and you have Opinions about the people you see his name next to in the papers some times. 

you live a pretty privileged life. those people you hate him working for makes sure he’s able to more than take care of you - more than what the ‘law’ says he has to do. you think sometimes he feels a bit guilty but it’s not like it’s his fault mum wanted to move back to near her family. you tell him constantly - as you start seeing cracks appear - that you’re old enough now. that he doesn’t need to worry about supporting you as much. you have scholarships! a part-time job! sure it’s not lavish and his money really helps but at the end of the day you want your dad happy. cos deep down he’s a good person - he’s just forgotten that. 

then one day he lets you know he’s on a sabbatical from work. ...ok...sure...usually any time off he takes coincides with a visit to you but dad can do his own thing. good for him finally taking some time for himself! then your nightly calls start having...interruptions? he spends a lot of time in this jazz bar and there’s randomly a woman in the rafters sometimes? or like a man cooking a 5 star meal? a woman reciting Shakespeare? a girl about your age yelling back and forth with some dude on a phone as she does something to wires??

and sure Dad seems stressed, and he seems weighed down (that’s been something you’ve noticed a lot recently but he’s always brushed it off) but he also looks so...free. serious. focused. like he’s finally got some kind of goal back when the last few years has just been the motions. So one night you’re playing your mobile game game together and you just stop and say “...I don’t know what you’re up to these days, dad. But i’m happy for you. I’m glad you found something you believe in again.” and he gets all teary and does the Dad Face that he does when touched and you keep playing the stupid game.

And sometimes you’ll be venting about an issue and one of those strangers has a Tip so you get slowly introduced. You’re making a meal for a date and suddenly you meet Eliot, who takes you through a delicious cheap meal step by step. You lock your keys in your car and are complaining about needing to call a locksmith and meet Parker, who tells you how to BREAK IN. You have to take a speech credit and Sophie is there with performance tips. You start playing games with Breanna and listen as she complains about her brother and walks you through Spirit’s Ruse while you teach her the rules of DnD.

random1: yoo joonghyuk? isn't that the terrorist?

yoo joonghyuk: Yes, I kin him.

and there is a man.

this man knows yjh's name. yjh has never seen him before. he says he is a fan.

he knows yjh, answering back in ways that are suspicious but almost too reasonable. his hand tightens around the man's neck. a prophet.

"companion," he says.

kdj looks him in the eyes and grins at yjh as he throw him off the bridge, into the mouth of a waiting monster. who knows what goes through yjh's mind but he smiles back. yjh believes him.

he finds his other companion but he is different. his shield is devoted to this strange man. (yjh finds out later that this man had been the cause death for his other companion - a teenager. one of his.)

later even when yjh's hopes had already been laid down, he comes back with the very same smile. so suspicious, so annoying. but he saves his group. but he hands over the child. he so pampers those around him.

he saves yjh in the theatre dungeon.

he gathers and protects a group of people, surrounding him with both familar and unfamiliar faces. among them are ones that yjh had journeyed with before and ones he hadn't. they are all useful. but there is more to it. yjh doesn't realise until kdj saves lsh for him.

so suspicious, so annoying. how could one man irritate him so much, yjh doesn't understand.

and then he saves yjh again.