#having thoughts

perverted father who is really into breeding 🤔 holding me down and kissing my head as he takes me 🤔 telling me he helped create me, so of course my cunt was made for him to cum inside of 🤔

I already reblogged a post about this, but the thing about always running with the assumption that Eddie is denying himself men ends up making a lot of his trauma responses about a brand of fear that's not backed by canon. Eddie denies himself any simple pleasures. And that goes from juice to Buck, but he's not denying himself Buck because Buck is a man. He's denying himself Buck because he doesn't believe he is worthy of things that make him happy. And that he doesn't have the right to trap Buck with him. And sure, given his dating history, the performance attached to dating, you can argue he's denying men. But the thing Ana and Marisol is that it was comfortable. Shannon was a hurricane, she defines most of Eddie's reactions because losing her is a big part of his 20s. But they never had stability. Between a teen pregnancy, Eddie being in the army, Shannon running, their relationship being defined by sex, Shannon dying, Eddie was never in solid ground there. Ana lacked passion, but if he hadn't been shot, Eddie would've stayed comfortable in what they had. Marisol, they were rushing through milestones, and Eddie ended up in a situation that would put anyone in a psych hold, but again, it was comfortable. He had no reason to question it because it was good enough, and he doesn't feel like he deserves everything. I feel like reducing Eddie's trauma responses to the fact that he needs to stop denying himself dick is an oversimplification of the issue Eddie has around simple pleasures and wanting selfish things. Eddie doesn't know how to make things about himself. He spent his whole life reducing himself to what the people around him needed from him. Older brother. Man of the house. Father. Husband. But he can't find what he needs without all that. And since he always shoved himself in boxes, rushing to a label also boxes him. So he hides behind his responsibilities so he won't have time to question what he really wants. A random guy won't make him happy. And he's not denying himself Buck because Buck is a man. He just doesn't believe he has the right to ask for Buck to be the partner he wants. Because that would trap Buck with him, and he doesn't think it's fair to do that to Buck. He doesn't get the things he wants, so why put Buck through him if he can just not think about it, and keep the status quo?

omg imagine robby the first time his lil baby gets sick :(((( a cold maybe. shes coughing and has a tempurature and trying to cry but shes lost her lil voice 😢 and robbys just heart broken but in full Doctor Mode doing everything he can for her. imagining him sat with baby on his chest his eyes red and teary both from tiredness and sadness for his baby :((((( him bouncing as he paces to soothe her and whispering reassurances to her that "youll be okay baby" "ive got you honey" "shhhh shh shh i know its horrible huh, but youll get better soon i promise."

hey guys what if cooper sees his daughter one more time and she doesn't recognize him. what if she's afraid. what if she's afraid of the monster that's claiming to be her dad. what if he doesn't recognize himself