#hate rant

As someone WITH the mental condition that has the ability to make me develop these things and as someone that worked SO HARD TO IMPROVE, this feels like a spit to my face bc all expectations of the message I was hoping for were burned and as an author? Hell that's the first time I get so frustrated with the writing of CRK. I tend to praise DEVSIS job a lot, but how can I praise something like this???

Why make the beasts an analogy to types of abuse DEVSIS, if you will market it and fucking make something like ep 10? The pride post was also something, in my opinion, terrible, so yeah.

Why the fuck are they just sticks

I understand it's like meant to look hot (i think?) But it genuinely takes me out of my ✨️immersion✨️ because in no way would this be practical like I'm not an engineer and even i can tell you that this is garbage they are literally sticks it would be so easy to lose balance there is a reason why the worker drones dont have this problem so explain to me why the murder ones do???

he doesn't use his fucking brain. no teenage girl DOESN'T act up every once in a while. both my parents think "my daughter is so good, so well behaved!! never argues with us!!" no i just don't show you fuckers my actual emotions and speak what i'm thinking so that there's no conflict or anger. i just blindly agree with everything they say and end up agreeing with/to shit that i don't want to do, all because i want to avoid arguing.

i don't want to argue with people, but fuck maybe i should start holy shit.

my dad doesn't make me feel like i can fucking speak around him. he's kinda the absolute opposite of welcoming.

he wonders why i don't speak to him and just go to my room immediately after practice, and then he says the most insensitive unfiltered thing to his child like no shit i don't speak to you, do you fucking hear yourself?

he doesn't even see anything wrong with what he says to me, all this fucking pressure for no reason. i just want to enjoy this sport why the fuck does he want it to be a chore?? he says he doesn't but it sure feels like he does.