Thirteen
Happy Lowman (Sons of Anarchy) x fem!reader
You're a florist. Happy is.. well Happy. You shouldn't work as a couple. At all. But my god you do. He worships the ground you walk on. Everyone can see that. So, really, it's not surprising at all when you get kidnapped. It's even less surprising when he, along with the rest of SAMCRO, come home with you, and Happy has thirteen new smiley face tattoos.
Nobody understood your relationship with Happy Lowman.
Honestly, most people stopped trying.
Because on paper, it sounded insane.
You smelled like roses and eucalyptus and fresh soil.
Happy smelled like gunpowder, leather, cigarettes, and violence.
You spent your mornings carefully wiring bouquets together beneath warm sunlight spilling through the windows of your flower shop.
Happy spent his mornings threatening men in dark parking lots.
You cried over dead bees.
Happy had absolutely, definitely killed people.
And yet somehow—
somehow—
you worked perfectly.
Like two puzzle pieces that should never have fit but did anyway.
Painfully well.
The first time Happy walked into your flower shop, everyone thought he was there to collect money.
Including you.
The bell above the door chimed softly as this giant tattooed biker stepped inside looking like a thunderstorm in human form.
The entire shop smelled like peonies.
Happy looked deeply out of place standing between displays of baby’s breath and pastel ribbons.
You blinked up from behind the counter.
“…Can I help you?”
Happy stared at you silently for a second.
Then held up a crumpled piece of paper.
“Need flowers.”
You took the note carefully.
Then immediately looked back up at him.
“This says ‘something pink.’”
“Yeah.”
“That’s… not specific.”
Happy shrugged.
You stared at him.
He stared back.
Then finally you sighed dramatically.
“Okay. Fine. Do you at least know what the occasion is?”
“No.”
You blinked.
“No?”
“Gemma told me t’pick ‘em up.”
That explained a lot.
You walked around the counter slowly.
“Alright, scary biker man. We’re gonna learn flower basics today.”
Happy looked offended immediately.
“Ain’t scary.”
You looked at the tattoos.
The scars.
The giant knife strapped visibly to his belt.
“…Sure.”
That should’ve annoyed him.
Instead, something in his mouth twitched slightly.
Not quite a smile.
Close.
You noticed immediately.
“Oh, there’s a person under there.”
Happy grunted.
You grinned.
And apparently that was the beginning of the end for him.
By the third visit, Happy stopped pretending he needed a reason to come by.
Sometimes he’d sit silently in the corner while you worked.
Sometimes he’d bring coffee.
Sometimes he’d just stand there watching you move through the shop with dirt smudged on your cheek and flowers tucked behind your ear.
You talked enough for both of you anyway.
“So hydrangeas are dramatic little bitches,” you explained one afternoon while trimming stems. “If they’re thirsty for too long, they just collapse for attention.”
Happy sat nearby cleaning his gun.
“Sounds familiar.”
You gasped.
“Was that a joke?”
“No.”
“It absolutely was.”
Happy’s eyes stayed on the gun.
But you caught the tiny twitch in his expression.
You pointed immediately.
“There! Again!”
“What.”
“The almost-smile.”
“Ain’t smilin’.”
“You’re literally emotionally attached to me now.”
Happy finally looked up.
Something soft flashed briefly behind his eyes.
“Yeah,” he said simply.
Like it was obvious.
Like it wasn’t a terrifying confession disguised as casual conversation.
Your heart skipped stupidly.
The club noticed before either of you did.
Mostly because Happy became unbearable about you.
Protective didn’t even begin to cover it.
Happy worshipped you in the quietest ways possible.
He fixed your shop door before you even realized it stuck.
Put gas in your car.
Walked on the outside of sidewalks automatically.
Sat through entire explanations about flower symbolism like they were life-or-death church meetings.
He remembered your favorite tea.
Threatened people who made you uncomfortable without you ever finding out.
And the way he looked at you—
Jesus Christ.
Even Tig noticed.
“You look at her like she invented breathing,” he muttered one night.
Happy didn’t even deny it.
Just lit another cigarette.
Across the clubhouse, you sat on the floor making flower crowns for absolutely no reason while Juice helped badly.
Happy’s eyes tracked you constantly.
Instinctively.
Like his body just naturally oriented toward yours now.
Tig shook his head slowly.
“You are down catastrophic.”
“Shut up.”
“She’s got dirt under her fingernails and you look ready to kill God for her.”
Happy took a drag from his cigarette.
Completely serious.
“Would.”
Tig blinked.
“…Jesus Christ.”
You loved Happy openly.
That was the thing that ruined him.
He wasn’t used to tenderness without conditions.
Wasn’t used to somebody touching his face gently just because they wanted to.
You kissed his scars.
Played with his rings while sitting in his lap.
Filled his house with plants he absolutely pretended to hate.
“You put another fern in here and I’m burnin’ it.”
“You named the last one.”
“…That ain’t relevant.”
“It’s named Fernando.”
Happy grunted while you laughed yourself breathless against his shoulder.
And Christ.
That sound.
Your laughter.
It got him every time.
Nobody had ever made Happy softer.
Not weak.
Never weak.
But softer around the edges.
Like you reached inside him and carefully planted something alive in all the ruined places.
Which was exactly why everyone knew what would happen eventually.
You were Happy’s weakness.
Not because you made him vulnerable.
Because he loved you visibly.
Completely.
There was no hiding it.
Anybody watching for five seconds could tell.
And in SAMCRO’s world, that made you dangerous to him.
So when you didn’t open the flower shop one morning—
the entire club knew immediately something was wrong.
Happy arrived first.
Your front door stood half-open.
Flowers scattered across the floor.
Broken glass glittering beneath overturned buckets.
And your phone—
your phone—
lay smashed near the counter.
Happy went terrifyingly still.
Jax arrived thirty seconds later and found Happy standing in the middle of the destruction without moving.
Too still.
That was always worse.
“Happy.”
No response.
Then slowly—
very slowly—
Happy bent down and picked up one crushed daisy from the floor.
His expression never changed.
But Jax watched murder settle behind his eyes in real time.
“Find her,” Happy said quietly.
Nobody argued.
You woke up tied to a chair in a filthy room that smelled like gasoline.
Your head pounded.
Hands numb from zip ties.
Three men sat nearby arguing loudly.
You recognized one immediately.
Landon Reese.
Local meth dealer.
You’d refused to let him use your flower shop for drops months ago.
Apparently he’d taken that personally.
“Well look who’s awake.”
You swallowed hard, forcing yourself not to panic.
“Happy’s gonna kill you.”
Landon barked out a laugh.
“That psycho biker?”
You looked him dead in the eye.
“Yes.”
And somehow that made him uneasy.
Good.
Because even terrified, you believed it completely.
Happy would come.
You knew he would.
Meanwhile, Happy Lowman was becoming something frightening even by SAMCRO standards.
Nobody had ever seen him like this.
Not even Opie.
Not even Chibs.
Usually Happy’s violence was controlled.
Precise.
Cold.
Now?
Now he looked rabid.
He barely spoke.
Barely blinked.
Every lead that turned dead ended with somebody bleeding.
By hour six, Happy had already tattooed four new smiley faces onto himself.
Juice noticed first.
“…Uh.”
Chibs looked over.
Then swore quietly.
Because everybody knew what the smileys meant.
Bodies.
Happy sat shirtless at the clubhouse table, tattoo gun buzzing steadily over his skin while blood smeared across old ink.
Completely calm.
That was the horrifying part.
Jax watched silently for a moment.
“How many?”
Happy didn’t look up.
“Four.”
It wasn’t enough.
Everybody could see that too.
Because you still weren’t home.
They found you forty-three hours later.
An abandoned repair warehouse outside Stockton.
SAMCRO rolled in like hell itself.
Gunfire exploded instantly.
You heard shouting.
Screaming.
Motorcycles.
Then—
“CLEAR.”
Happy’s voice.
You jerked upright so fast the chair nearly tipped.
“Happy!”
Heavy footsteps thundered toward the room.
Then the door burst open.
Happy stopped dead the second he saw you.
Alive.
Breathing.
Terrified but alive.
The entire world seemed to pause.
You’d never seen him look emotional before.
Not fully.
But now—
Now his face cracked open with something raw enough to hurt.
“Baby.”
Your eyes filled instantly.
Happy crossed the room in seconds.
Knife flashing.
Zip ties dropping.
And the second your hands came free, you threw yourself at him.
Happy caught you hard against his chest.
One arm locked around your waist while the other cradled the back of your head protectively.
You felt him shaking.
Tiny.
Barely there.
But real.
“You’re okay,” he murmured roughly into your hair. “You’re okay.”
You clung tighter immediately.
“I knew you’d come.”
Happy made a broken sound at that.
Because of course you did.
Of course you trusted him that completely.
Behind him, the rest of the club quietly looked away.
Nobody interrupted.
Nobody joked.
Because Happy held you like something holy.
Like getting you back had stitched his soul together again.
Then you pulled back slightly.
Your eyes caught on the fresh tattoos peeking beneath his sleeve.
One.
Two.
Three—
Your breath caught.
“…Happy.”
Silence.
Happy’s jaw tightened.
Jax rubbed a hand over his face nearby.
“Twelve,” Tig muttered quietly.
You blinked.
“Twelve?”
Happy looked at you steadily.
Cold fury still simmering beneath his skin.
“One escaped.”
The room went still.
Because everybody knew exactly what that meant.
Happy touched your face gently.
“Not for long.”
They found the thirteenth man before sunrise.
And when Happy came home afterward, exhausted and bloodstained and silent, there was one more smiley face inked into his skin.
Thirteen.
You sat on the bathroom counter while he cleaned blood from his knuckles.
Neither of you spoke for a while.
The silence felt heavy now.
Not uncomfortable.
Just full.
You finally reached for his wrist carefully.
Happy’s eyes lifted to yours immediately.
Your thumb brushed lightly over the fresh smiley tattoo.
“You scared me,” you whispered.
Something in Happy’s face shifted instantly.
Regret.
Not for what he’d done.
Never that.
For putting that look in your eyes.
He stepped between your knees slowly.
Big hands settling carefully on your thighs.
“You’re alive.”
The roughness in his voice nearly broke you.
Because underneath all the violence and blood and brutality—
that was all that mattered to him.
You cupped his face gently.
Happy leaned into the touch instinctively.
Like he couldn’t help it anymore.
“I love you,” you whispered.
Happy closed his eyes briefly.
And when he opened them again, the terrifying rage was finally gone.
Only exhaustion and devotion remained.
“You ain’t ever gettin’ taken from me again.”
You believed him.
Absolutely.
Not because Happy was invincible.
But because there wasn’t a force on earth capable of stopping that man from tearing the world apart for you if he had to.
You pulled him closer carefully until his forehead rested against yours.
And for the first time in nearly two days, Happy finally looked calm.
Home.
Right there in your hands.




















