#hannji rambles

I understand there is a lot of controversy going around about Changbins debauchery last night. I understand theres a lot of us who are losing our minds meanwhile a lot of us are upset given the way Changbin has been talking lately in regards to weightloss and 'getting in shape'. A lot of you feel like he was pressured into showing off his body by Stay, and a lot of you are angry that he "gave into the pressure" of "losing weight to please us" (wdyem??). But how do you know that's what made him do it?

Yes, he's always been proud of his bulking and the body structure he built since debut. Yes, he's talked about never wanting to show off his body and giving into the pressure set on him by society and by the fans. But those of you who are going off saying youre disappointed and angry at us for "making" him do it, do you even hear yourself?

Changbin is his own person. We didn't make him do shit. And people change. Yeah, predebut Changbin wanted to bulk up. He did that. But did you guys ever stop to think that maybe he's changed his mindset as he's grown older? Maybe his ideal body goal has changed in the last 7 years. Whose hasn't? As we grow, our self-imagine and our mindsets change, and its perfectly okay. Its normal.

Am I saying his did? No. But I'm also not saying his didn't.

Either way, we don't know. could Stay have played a big part in what he did and he felt pressured to do it? Yes. Could it all have been his own doing and he wanted to do it because he is becoming proud of the body he has? Also yes. The point is we don't know why he did it, so why the fuck are we assuming shit and fighting about it like children? The only person who knows why he did it is himself.

Call me insane, but I think we should be focusing more on the confidence and happiness hes found within himself lately, regardless of Stays opinion or not, and stop speculating what goes on in his mind and why he did what he did.