#hajottaa

22.11. So things are at the point when my brain has finally awoken and I'm having mental clarity to study. Chaos mode, i haven't drank that much coffee today but i have mate tea which is almost the same and i'm drinking that currently.

I turned in my notes from this article and now I'm considering just editing my research plan for a while.

An allnighter would fix me. Coffee at 3am and techno and whatever else. It would fix all of this. But I can't do it because

these mandatory courses require detailed study diary entries for each week and i can't just do all of it in one go

these courses also require going over the peer review you'll get for some of those diary entries, so i gotta wait for the reviews before i can do more things (which means i just lie in the entries bc i don't wanna say "i'm sick of this shit let me just get my fucking academic machine on and lemme do it in one night")

these professors have surely formed the courses in a way that's just "anti-allnighter." I know it doesn't produce optimal learning experience. But neither does this level of frustration... because..

I'M SUPPOSED TO BE doing my research plan. All the time. And i need at least half a week to get my brain jammed on hyperfocus mode on one thing.. and right now i gotta switch back and forth between tasks and its 1 infuriating and 2 inefficient for me.

I'll just pray that my mental status holds on until these damn things (research ethics + university pedagogy basics) are DONE and then .. then i'll write a damn stellar research plan rework in one week.

I'm supposed to brief my future work based on my research plan on 16.4. and i'm so excited and stressed about it already. Like everyone of the Faculty of Humanities is gonna be there listening to my ramblings.

“Ääretön on epämääräinen, joten italia velkaantuu.”

“4+2=3″

“Perjantai-iltapäivän nerovaihe”

“Kakkosesta olen samaa mieltä“

“Montako lävistäjää tässä on? Yksi, kaksi, kolme-- no en mä tiiä”

“Mä en ymmärrä miks isä ja äiti ei nuorena lähettäny saksaan ja sanonu et jää sinne“

Amk: *lisää tilastoja, faktoja ja analyyseja*

Minä: *tilastot, faktat ja analyysit tursuaa ulos korvista*