this rewatch of cxg i'm really focusing on why i like grebecca and if its mostly cause santana is hot as hell and because my dad was an alcoholic angry man and now when i see alcoholic angry men grow on the tv, my heart swells. i just finished i have to get out and i really tried to focus on i hate everything but you and rebecca's crashout after and honestly guys, i think that had she still been doing the work when he said that whole last verse, she'd have really gotten it. greg hates everything, but he loves rebecca's passion more than anything else about her. he tried at raging waters, as new greg, and she didn't as new rebecca. new rebecca would have seem that and said "you know what you're right" and recentered to focus on greg in front of her, not the one in her imagination. and she would have felt SO DAMN LOVED by the fact that she had this photo to begin with! And all the sudden the photo of her having fun and him suffering is cute because it shows that he might not always like it, but he's down to try things for her. and we saw in his relationship with heather (and also i could if i wanted to) that the hating things as default is a part of old greg's patterns... so finding someone to get him to try stuff is so what new greg needs to not fall into old greg's patterns. and new greg not hating himself or the person (or people) who got him to try when he doesn't like something is what rebecca needs to not fall into her old patterns. they fought and she slipped, but gods, imagine if he had been self hating about it and been like "i'm awful and terrible and the reason i like you is because you're literally opposite me and you're wasting your time caring about me"? like not only would she have tried to have sex with nathaniel and josh, but she would have tried to hurt greg aswell.
the healthy versions of themselves need the other one's healthy patterns and then BOOM! they're literally exactly what they need! so no, i don't think i'm being weird about grebecca which is nice to affirm for myself
