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Barry Sloane in Six

With my first pregnancy and birth a couple months behind me I want try and give a few descriptions of what it was like for me.

Overall, I think the labor process was more exhausting and painful than I expected. I knew it was going to be hard, but I wasn’t prepared for the length of time it would take, the lack of sleep and sheer fatigue.

Some thoughts about pain

Everyone talks about how painful it is to give birth. It’s ingrained in our culture. And yes, it was VERY painful. But what doesn’t get enough attention in my opinion, is that it is SO worth it in the end❤️ You do it out of love, and you push yourself beyond your limits if you have to, because the love you feel is overwhelming, almost terrifying.

Most here have seen pictures and videos of the crowning process, and it looks very extreme. Almost defying belief, in my humble opinion 😅 But for me, that was not the most painful part. While extremely physically challenging and exhausting, the pain from that never quite reached the levels that I experienced from the contractions BEFORE I could even start pushing. Maybe it was just subjective, but I find it really interesting 🤔

Pushing

Pushing her out was the most physically demanding thing I have ever done. I have never exerted myself that much before or used my muscles to that extent. Even muscles I didn’t know I had. Feeling the urge, being able to lean into the first big push did feel like a bit of a relief though. It was definitely an improvement over just drowning in the mind numbing pain of the contractions. It was a very odd sensation. I had her inside me for 9 months, and suddenly my body was telling me that this was now totally intolerable and had to change RIGHT NOW. It didn’t matter that the pressure in my pelvis became huge and painful, and my opening stretching way beyond normal capacity. She just had to come out, no matter what. So I pushed.

Crowning

After pushing a couple of times I could feel her head moving and sliding inside me. I started crowing fairly quickly. It was mostly a sensation of tremendous pressure in my butt at first, like it was coming out of both holes at the same time. And I actually didn’t know what exactly was happening until my husband and my midwife said almost simultaneously that they could see the head. The pressure gradually transformed into burning and a very distinct sensation of being extremely open.

It came to a point where it was hard for me to open any further and for what felt like a long time (around 10 minutes according to my husband), I didn’t make any progress. It was kind of distressing, and I started to feel like I wouldn’t be able to get her out. I even said so very loudly a few times 😆

I felt huge, exhausted and helpless.

As some of you may remember, I did experiment a little bit with an inflatable toy to simulate crowning during my pregnancy. I have to admit it made me feel like a badass when I did that, but experiencing the real thing was very humbling 😅

The moment of birth

It felt impossible, but as it turned out, it wasn’t. The stinging pressure reached a new peak and I felt my lips stretch and peel back. I could feel my hips moving in a strange way as the huge mass rushed out of my body. It only took 2-3 seconds, but I felt everything and I can still recall it very vividly like it happened in slow motion. It was both horrible and absolutely amazing. The relief was incredible! The most pure beautiful feeling of physical and mental relief I have ever experienced. And…just a hint of a sad emptiness in my belly🥺

I don’t remember much about birthing the placenta and stuff happening after that, except being an extremely happy proud mom.

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Art I commissioned by the talented Zeruxu

The morning after:

I’ve been meaning to share some stuffing/bloating content on here, but I just keep forgetting to… 🤣

I had a really great big steak burrito and beans/rice stuffing from an amazing local Mexican restaurant last night. That was after having some donuts and a mango flavored Sabrina’s Daydream refresher earlier in the day and, while I was too busy with my husband with how big I got last night to get pics from then, I’m still so bloated this morning and just had to share!

I’m lactose intolerant, but lactaid doesn’t work very well for me, so I tend to still bloat a whole lot when I have dairy. It doesn’t get very uncomfortable for me and I love the feeling of a full belly. It’s super erotic and I just love it. 💜

PS - Sorry that my phone camera is a potato, so the quality of the pics are pretty mid.

At Pride Ring Hospital….

Doctor: *giving Alastor an ultrasound*

Adam: *anxious* So what’s going on?! It’s not like… ten babies in there right?!

Doctor: *laughs* Oh course not! That’s ridiculous.

Adam: Phew.

Doctor: It’s just the one baby. And everyone is going according to schedule.

Alastor: Pardon… but I’m only three months pregnant at most. Why do I look like I’m further along.

Doctor: *looks between the two men and then at the record* Ohhh okay I see what’s going on. This is the first time of pregnancy you’ve experienced!

Alastor: First… type?

Adam: Lady I know how babies are made. What other kinds of pregnancies are there?!

Doctor: Well I suppose you wouldn’t call this “pregnant” so much as you would use “gravid?”

Alastor: Gravid??

Adam: You mean… like a bird?

Doctor: Precisely! *turns the monitor around and shows both Alastor and Adam the semi-calcified egg inside of Alastor*

Alastor and Adam: *dumbfounded*

Alastor: That’s… inside of me? It looks massive!

Doctor: On the contrary, this egg is only measuring around 6 inches at the moment. And judging by the measurements of your abdomen, it’ll be between 2 to 3 pounds.

Adam: Why is it an egg?!

Doctor: Sometimes genetics is strange. You’re a bird sinner.

Adam: I was an angel!

Doctor: Well birds have hollow bones and it’ll see need time to incubate. Around 4-6 months by my estimate.

Alastor: You seem rather calm about this doctor. Is this not your first avian-style pregnancy?

Doctor: *laughs* Of course not! I’ve tended to many of the Ars Goetia! They’re all birds!

Alastor: Ahh. That explains…

Doctor: Well this is actually better for you health wise. Your egg is a good size and you may actually lay this week!

Alastor and Adam: So soon?!

Doctor: Normal birds take 24 hours at least to produce an egg. This is normal. And don’t forget you have to incubate the egg. Keep it safe and warm until it’s ready to hatch.

Adam: Oh… *looks at Alastor* Looks like chicken will be off the menu for a while, huh?

Alastor: *starts to laugh since it hit different before he starts crying*