#graditude

— I know what yall are thinking, “ joking with the universe? wtf is she talking about?? “ HEY DONT THROW THE TOMATOES YET, HEAR ME OUT!!

so what I mean by that is when I don’t see my desires in my 3D, I look up in the sky and say something like, “ yo! yes, you universe. I know you’re listening so don’t try to make it look like you aren’t! I’ve been waiting for my desire, are you sleeping on the job or something? “

yeah… guys, I swear I’m not crazy AND YES THE UNIVERSE IS A SHE, OKEY??? So in the end, this helps me with bonding with the universe which is kind of weird or stupid… maybe?

Since I know she is listening, I have this weird friendship / bond with her hahahahah. Like let me tell yall what happened this morning— I was gonna put some ice on my drink and our ice thing is a bit weird, it’s a chance how much I will get in one hit ( like when I hit it to get ice, I can get two in one hitting or even 3 in one hitting. I don’t know it. )

I said to myself, “ let me get one ice cup. “ and hit the cup thing and I got one ice cup, then I said, “ wait, let me get one more. “ and so I hit it and it was one more so I looked up in the sky and said, “ wow universe, thank you! “ and then I decided that I want one more but obviously MISS UNIVERSE decided to intervene. When I hit it, I got TWO ICE CUPS so I was like, “ wow! Thanks girl, I actually didn’t asked for two but thank you. “

Also! Today I was just chillin and looking at movies on Netflix to watch! then I saw a k-drama called, “ doctor stranger “ which made me remember i actually forgot to rewatch mcu’s doctor strange, that reminded me! So I looked up and said, “ thank you for reminding me, universe! “

I even named my universe by the way… yes and it’s Rose.

So I think this helps with normalizing having gratitude towards the universe and I feel less lonely hahahah 😭 like I know she is always listening so I’m always talking to her or saying things to her.

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"i shouldn't be here" but in the way of genuinely how have I survived and made it to the point I am?

Compared to the very real worse possibilities I'm doing so great it's insane. I'm doing pretty well managing my mental health on my own, I'm IN SCHOOL? I'm 16 and havent been in school since 7th fucking grade and I finally found an alternative school for me to go to!

Just in general I'm so grateful for so much, like last year I had my first real Christmas since 2019(with a tree and presents) and this year I'm also getting my first real Halloween costume in God knows how long!!!

(TRIGGER WARNING in depth talk of sex trafficking)

A little over a year ago now I was homeless and sitting in the back of a grown man's car being asked if he can sex traffick in front of his two kids(literally asked me word for word after he made his kids talk about how "people want it" and it helps kids from broken homes) and the worst part is I debated wether it was worth it to get my family into a house/given money for weeks,

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But now I'm not homeless, infact I'm going to be moving into a HOUSE from my apartment! I'm so excited!!! We're gonna have a yard and everything

Not to mention we're hopefully getting a car soon? Dude everything is getting better, I know everything comes in waves but recently my life has been overall getting so much better!

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