My grad cap!
I’ve had pretty complicated thoughts on graduating. On one hand I did have some great times in high school. I have a pretty great group of friends and a best friend who is amazing. On the other hand most of my high school years were miserable fighting my own mental health, which kept getting worse until I had to quit my job of 4 years and stop basically all of my extracurriculars. The last few months, despite having my lowest course work, it was harder and harder to get out of bed and I almost failed the one class I had. I feel awful talking about it with my friends as I know they have absolutely gone through so much worse and had far less of a support system than I did. World’s smallest violin I guess.
I think I am looking forward to college but I just can’t tell at this point. It feels more scary than exciting and the constant voice in my head telling me that I peaked in high school and that I’m not going to be able to survive on my own in this horrendous economy is loud. I don’t feel like a person without school.
To any students who read this I wish you a far better time than I had, even if I’m being melodramatic.
