Real talk.. i'm just tryna be real. " Mask-off "
Friend: Get back to church! I recommend it. What makes you so uncomfortable?
It's fine it's not like i'm a bad person. I can still believe in Christ without being able to make it every Sunday and i don't feel comfortable with the youths I've been apart of with both churches so i rather not
i aint gonna lie I don't like being preached to, especially by other youth.I know what im doing. i don't agree with everything in the bible and i'm not the most " christianly " person. I grew up as a christian, i got baptized first grade, I remembered all the memory verses at Sunday school, I went to church all the time. But really I never really understood the whole concept behind it.
I criticized people who did bad things and I was brainwashed and thought people were going to hell for it.. without even knowing their full story why they do what they do.
I'm a christian,but doing some things and not following everything that's taught in the bible because i don't agree with it, doesn't make me less of a christian. I'm a good person And I know it. but I ain't gonna lie when i say church isn't one of my first priorities. there's a lot of hypocrites at churches and dramatic people and shit talking people. I don't have to be in that area to love God, I can do it on my own time but i have no discrimination again other religions, religion isn't a big part of me. I love all kinds but that's just me. I know people tell me i should do this and that. but really, i don't wanna.I mean I'm sorry if that response wasn't something you wanted to hear but real talk, it's just me. I mean anybody can really give me a deep ass talk. I've been through a lot of talks with people that are more " open minded " but really.. no. It's just me. like i Love GOD. but i'm not toooo " religious " why keep on putting up a fake ass front and shit just because camp just ended and people are expected to have a stronger faith in him when i know i'ma just be a phony if i put that act on. It's not me. I mean do go to camp to try and find myself, but sometimes things don't feel right.
I don't wanna get re-baptized if i'm not commited and I don't wanna commit to anything If i'm not up for it, ya digggg
Remember when we first began talking and I told you you were different? That's what I was expecting. When we first began talking, you were typing like that. A whole bunch of sentences that probably added up to more than a paragraph.
I dig. To be honest, drinking won't help though..And cutting down your cussing would be a good thing too.But it's you.
ME:I know but i'm a teenager, we all go through it and face hard times I party just to party. I'm not hurting anyone but myself I mean, I can actually control myself I sometime took care of people at parties I've never been drunk and cussing is a form of expression and anger, I don't ever use any derogatory words
* Only because I felt like I had to get this situation off my chest and I felt like there was no other way better for me to explain than this good discussion I had.. And if people still judging and questioning still without taking a step inside my shoes first, i can go ahead and say fuckaaa you too.
