#goodbye post

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note: sorry for being so inactive :( I have recently completed my transemployed journey [i'm cis-passing!!] so fortunately i have to step away from the community. thank you to all my supporters <3

Folks, I've been thinking about things for a good long while - my declining mental health, my inability to write, my place in the Deltarune community - and I've decided it's time for me to go.

It's just not fun anymore. It hasn't been fun for a while, if I'm being entirely honest, and smashing my head against this wall over and over has done nothing but make me miserable. I've been putting this off for a while, but there comes a point where you have to face reality - and the reality is, the spark just isn't there anymore. I can't force myself to enjoy this - and believe me, I have tried so hard to do so.

To everyone here who has found my thoughts and my stories interesting or inspiring, thank you for making the past four years that bit more bearable. Thank you for indulging me for as long as you have, for interacting with me, offering encouragement and support, even if only in the background. I'll always think back fondly to this point in my life, and I will miss you all.

So with Oliver quitting because of the harassment, my thoughts were all over the place. I felt scared, confused, frustrated, sorry and angry, very angry.

Sure there was a part of me that wondered "what now Alex? What about all the projects? What will the smcu become?"

But a far greater part thought of all the real life people that were harmed throughout this harassment.

I befriended my fair share of smcu role players and I'll NEVER shut up about how much they mean to me.

Oliver successfully drafted some of the best people out there that shared their love for this silly universe, that showed their passion and solidarity till the end.

That created and created and created.

Lore obviously, but most importantly memories, comfort, growth, love.

So the fact that some obnoxious asshole thought it would be okay to hurt ANY of them is just the cherry on top.

If any of you fuckfaces are reading this, either stop harrassing people IN GENERAL and GET A FUCKING LIFE or you can send me, Eri ( theo ) or Diana ( dustin ) the hate and harassment but don't you fucking dare touch any other members.

Your actions have consequences on real life people, and the consequence for the ones you've done so far is lifelong enemies.

Remember that behind that screen of yours, you're just flesh and bones with apparently no soul. Thank you for ruining our fun.

I like to think that I tend to go easy on people, I prefer being passive because I HATE hurting people more than anything.

But I draw the line when it comes to the people I love.

The only reason I ever committed any kind of violence irl was to defend my loved ones, and I'll proudly do it again because of love, because human connections makes us do the craziest things, no matter what the consequences are.

Putting this aside, I'd like to add that I faced an anxiety attack because of this.

And I'm not saying this for pity since it's nobody's fault inherently, I've been stressed out in general for personal reasons and this was just the final straw.

Thankfully however I have one of the most amazing friends ever that helped me through it (im genuinely so grateful to her, a literal angel bro) and she recommended that I take a few days off of all of this.

For my mental health's sake.

And for Oliver's sake.

So yeah all this to say

- I'll be taking a break for an unknown amount of time

- fuck the people that caused the harassment

- I love you guys and thank you for everything <3

Ps: if any of you guys want to chat privately, my DMS will still be open :)

Hi guys, this might be my final post for a while ^^ I got grounded for using my phone during our field trip (don’t worry — I was just searching about Greek gods, power banks, Pinterest, and a phone brand). I’m not really sure why, but yeah... my dad said no PC until Christmas. There’s even a chance it could last up to two years, like when I was 10 or 11 — that was tough, and it’s one reason my art didn’t improve much back then.

So, this post might really be my last for now. Thank you so much for being my supporters, friends, and acquaintances for the past year and a half. I’ll really miss you guys — but who knows? Maybe I’ll be back sooner than expected.

See you soon... – Sparkle-2

I am deleting my account within few days.(Before 1st dec for sure)

It was a wonderful whole year for me. I never thought that I was actually be able to rp a fan favourite character.. was able to do it good enough to get some wonderful praise.

But I have reached a point where I don't wish to stay in tf fandom anymore..so I have no interest in continuing rp as I no longer think that I can protray Megatron truly.

While this whole 1 year .. I get to meet very amazing people like @blindxptimism @silenceofthewave @the-bird-in-your-window and @pauk-di and more.... It was truly a wonderful and wholesome year and I thank all the people (from those with whom I have interacted with to the people who followed me for my writing). I am really really grateful to everyone..

If anyone wish to reach to me before I delete my account ... Please do so.. i won't mind

After much thinking, I’ve decided to make a new blog. I’m going to leave this one up because it’s special to me and I don’t want to repost all my writings. I want to start completely fresh. Also, I might want to come back to it one day. This blog used to be my safe space. But over time I feel that it’s just become more and more of a negative space for me where I feel unsafe and anxious. I’m not running away, but I do need a space that doesn’t feel surrounded by negativity. I don’t want to leave tumblr entirely. I love the friends I’ve made, I love reading your fics, I love writing and thirsting after my fictional men.

I might come back to this blog one day, but for now, I think this is what’s best for me. It’s something I’ve been considering back and forth for a while now. This account just feels tainted for a multitude of reasons that I don’t feel the need to go into detail about. I always said I’d never get pushed off my blog, and this isn’t that. I just need something new, that I can build from scratch again. I was unsure if I wanted to share my new account publicly or just have people find me naturally, but not for the sake of hiding, but I think for my own piece of mind, please message me (off anon) if you’d like my new user. I’ll be honest about it if people ask if it’s me, and eventually I’ll probably link my old masterlists on my new blog. For now though, while I’m getting my bearings, I think this is the best choice for me.

This blog has meant so much to me. I’ve put blood, sweat, and tears into building this space and it’s been through a number of changes over the last two years. But there was always people who stuck with me through it. Read my works even if they weren’t in that fandom, just because they like my writing. The support and love I’ve received here has made every single ounce of negativity worth it. All the friends I’ve made along the way, have forever changed my life. This blog gave me the courage to write a real novel, which I had convinced myself I could never do years ago. Even if it’s always been my dream. So thank you, for everything. I love you all immensely. Goodbye for now.

-Dolly