#gonebutnotforgotten

Happy Tuesday! As Cecile in Lou Grant-25 years old-1977- a few screenshots #lougrant #patriciamattick #pattyemattick #1977tv #adorable #GoneButWillNeverBeForgotten

grief is strange.

sometimes i forget how much time has passed.

it’s been years now - three, almost four..

and somehow that feels unreal.

long enough for the world to move on,

but close enough that it still feels like yesterday.

some days i barely think about it.

i laugh, i live, i breathe like it’s fine.

and then out of nowhere, it hits again.

not because of a song or a smell,

sometimes for no reason at all.

just this wave that reminds me

that grief never really leaves,

it just changes shape.

last year on my birthday i turned 23.

older than my older brother ever got to be.

and that thought still sits heavy in my chest.

it’s strange to outlive someone

you never thought you’d have to live without.

some days it feels okay,

and some days it feels like the ground disappears beneath me.

pain changes you.

not suddenly, not beautifully,

just quietly.

it softens you in some places,

hardens you in others.

you learn how to smile with the ache,

how to carry what can’t be fixed.

grief becomes a part of you..

a language only you understand.

and maybe that’s what healing really means:

not forgetting, not moving on,

just learning to live with the version of yourself

Remembering a Native American Actor Who Passed Away