#goldtinged

“I keep losing track of everyone's names.” She'd only arrived at the LA Institute about a week before, sent after her final year of training at the Academy. And so far she was pretty sure she hadn't got any of the children's names right.

      “HE LOOKS AT YOU A LOT. WHEN YOU’RE NOT PAYING ATTENTION.”

     cheeks   flush   red   instantly,     gaze  falling  to  her  hands  as  teeth  brush  against  her  bottom  lip.  cristina  does  not  want  to  think  about  it,  let  alone  talk  about  it  /  the  ever - growing  feelings  she  has  been  developing  for  mark.  it  is  complicated,  especially  when  kieran  is  back,  and  she  just...  she  is  not  ready  to  face  the  ramifications  of  moonlight  conversations  and  the  stares  --  because  she  knows  he  looks  at  her.  she  knows  because  she  looks  at  him  too.  however,  the  world  of  denial  is  a  lot  more  comforting  (  it  does  not  offer  risk  or  danger  or  signs  of  heartbreak.  )       ❝  no,  he  doesn’t.  you’re  wrong.  why  would  he  look  at  me?  no.  he’s  just--  he  looks  at  everything  and  everyone  because  he’s  still  adjusting.  ❞

❝    we need to find it before the others do .    ❞

     forgetfulness in silence of step, having grown so use to lurking & passing through institute halls, rather than making presence easily known. he was intruding on her space, pressuring himself in closed quarters however... there was a fear that he had offended, perhaps even giving word of worry would be far too intrusive. yet months alongside children, care had began to spring, & seeing spurt of tears did nothing short but break his heart.   it reminded him of nights alone, often spent at hand of drug that consumed every last bit of life left in young shadowhunter. & even though she didn’t contain same illness, & had her own set of tragedies, he saw himself in her, more than he’d ever be able to share.

❝           patience,       grasshopper.        good    things   comes   to   those   who   wait.           ❞