The battle of thoughts.

Have you ever felt like you are drowning in your thoughts? Like you get caught up in them, feeling like you are in a tornado, spinning faster and faster. To the point, where you can’t stop thinking, feeling paralised and unable to break out of your thoughts.

I’ve always been someone who overthinks pretty much everything, even the smallest details. In the past few months, there have happened so many things and there have been so many new things and changes in my life. I’ve finished my a-levels, started my apprenticeship, lost my grandpa and welcomed another pony to my little pony herd, just to give a few examples. I experienced all kinds of emotions, went through highs and the lowest lows I ever went through.

And through all that, my thoughts were one of the hardest things to deal with.

Believing that God has a great and wonderful plan for my life, that he wants me to fulfill, I really want to follow his plans and not mine. And since I’m not really a patient person, I’d like to get to the finish line as fast as I can with not a single detour. Therefore, I was always thinking about my recent decisions, especially regarding my apprenticeship. And that then led to me letting in doubts and worries. So many questions and thoughts really fogged up my mind. What if God has a different plan for me? What if he wants me somewhere else? What if my decision to do this specific apprenticeship is going to lead to me taking longer to fulfill God’s plan for me? And so forth and so on.

All this thinking gave me headaches and at times, I really thought my head was gonna explode soon. I was so confused and was longing for peace. I prayed to God, asking for peace and begged and begged him over and over to tell me what to do. It took some time for me to be calm enough to listen to what God was trying to say to me, but I finally realized that my thoughts and my mindset were the biggest of my problems. That they were the thing, that kept me from enjoying my life, despite whatever circumstances are around me. From that moment on, I tried to focus on everything good and thinking positive thoughts, rather than letting negative and doubtful thoughts take over. I would be lying to you if I told you it was easy - it was the opposite. Changing my thoughts and mindset was hard work and often times, it felt like a battle. A battle of thoughts, if you will. I had to fight every single day, praying and relying on God’s strength and help. Some days were easier, some days were harder. The progress was slow and often times it felt like there was none at all.

Now, a few months have passed and I’m so glad, that even though it was a slow process, I learned how to control my thoughts and lead them in the right directions with God’s help. Surely, there is still a lot more room to grow and I’m not at the finish line yet. But I’m also not where I was 3 months ago and as long as I keep going and making progress, that’s completely fine. Because at the end of the day, the only thing God is really interested in, is the attitudes of our hearts.

On that note, I would like to end this blog entry. I hope my little testimony maybe encourages you a little to keep on fighting with God’s help. He loves you and he will help you get through whatever it is your struggling with.

See you soon and be blessed!

For many times we have doubted God’s power. Many testimonies say that there are times when they just choose not to pray because they think they can solve it on their own. However, our verse today from Paul reminds us about how we must always rely on God and not doubt His mighty power. Paul concluded this chapter with this doxology proclaiming that to God who can do immeasurably and unimaginable things, more than what we ask is at work in us through His power inside us. 

This just shows that indeed, God is powerful, He is able, He can do many things, and He will do unexplainable and unimaginable things. God can do everything no matter how big we will be asking. There is nothing impossible with God, everything is possible. Now, the God who is living, who is powerful, and who is able is at work in us. We have to remember that God has proved this awesome power through our salvation. 

God made His power known, His ability, His ableness to do immeasurable things through making our salvation possible. Indeed, the biggest proof of God’s power, love, mercy, grace, ableness, and forgiveness are through our salvation in Christ. He has given us Christ as our Lord and Savior, and also to be our sacrificed lamb. We are unredeemable beings because of how sinful we are. No matter how we try to cover up all the horrible things we did with some good acts, it will never stay buried. We are sinful by nature and we will always crave to sin. 

However, we are reminded again by Paul that God is able and can do immeasurable things. Even making our salvation possible, even if we are unredeemable is possible for Him. He knows that we need a Savior, so He has given His Son to become our sacrificial lamb. Now, as sinful as we are, we know that God is at work with us. Through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, we are now given the Spirit of God. So, this is what Paul meant when He said that according to the power of God, He is at work in us. 

As we receive Christ Jesus as our Lord and Savior, we will have new lives and we will be craving to follow Christ, instead of following our sinful desires. Therefore, this is the work of God. Although at first, we will think that we can't stop sinning, God gave us the power to stop and to follow Him at all times. Thus, this is Him making impossible things possible. Therefore, all glory and honor, and praise really belong to God the maker of all things, the Savior of the world, and the comforter of all mankind.

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