#gobarkmode

im so. tired. of modern human life.

the grass is always greener but I just cannot stop thinking about how life as a wild animal must be so. simple.

all you have is the day ahead of you, the next hunt, the next meal. there is no planning for next months rent. there is no chequings and savings. there is no car appointment.

there's just. you. and your pack. and the forest. and the will to survive.

seriously it's such an odd feeling to be an alterhuman that is such a social animal??

i wish i had memories of growing up as a pup. i wish i had learned to stalk and kill and hunt as a team. i wish i had the unbreakable pack bond that includes both friends and family. I wish I could father a litter of pups, and watch and help them grow into strong, capable wolves. I wish I could lay in a sunbeam with one of my packmates while we rest and groom each other's fur after a successful hunt.

it just feels like there are pieces missing from both my past and future. but. i AM lucky enough to have the human luxury of the internet, to find folks who feel like me. to find folks who assure me that we are not alone. so maybe in a way I do have a pack :)

and also - I get to eat sweets and chocolate, go to music shows, take photos, drive around and explore without my legs being tired. maybe if I had been born a wolf I would miss these human experiences, too.

OKAY! enough rambling for today - send post

even before I started to question my alterhumanity (aka recently) I have always always imagined myself with a tail. it makes my chest feel warm and fuzzy to see my tail in my shadow!! feels like I finally have a piece of my body language that I've been missing. but now im wishing i could wear my tail everywhereeeeee :c

I've always been able to "feel" my tail, and sometimes my ears, but for the last couple of weeks I've been able to "feel" my snout and sometimes paws? never had these types of phantom shifts before; the snout one is uncomfortable and weird tbh.

anyways. yarn tails are pretty easy and fairly affordable to make yourself!! cost me about $20 in materials and it's so softtt! i cant wait to try and make more gear (hopefully ears) in the future >:D

anyways if you read my rambling I'm wagging my tail at you :3 🐺🌕