#go to bed...

She loves her so much, doesn’t she? Throwing me under the bus, I guarantee. She’s only saying words to get me to stop, To remind me that I’m all I’ve got, Despite not saying it outright. I keep making mistake after mistake. And I slowly await the heartbreak, To consume me any day now from the inside out, ‘Cause that’s what my life seems to be about, Of neverending torment that needs to end. I am getting so exhausted and drained, From the near constant disdain, Of the thoughts of being worthless, Unimportant, a failure, endless panicked nervousness, Over something that was never there to begin with. I’ll be straight up right now, That I’ll never understand how, She thinks she deserves me, When I definitely don’t deserve her. Despite me being in the way and wanting to disappear.