#gmatt

Kanina lang nagising ako na may ngiti sa mukha ngunit kasabay noon ay may kahalong pakiramdam ng kaunting pagkainis. Sa totoo lang gusto ko talaga kapag naaalala ko ang aking mga panaginip. Noon nga ay isinusulat ko pa talaga ang panaginip ko at saka ko hinahanap at ina-analyze kung anong maaaring ibig sabihin ng mga simbolo na nakita ko. O di kaya naman inaalam ko kung ano ang mga posibleng dahilan kung bakit ko nakita iyon sa panaginip ko. Mabalik sa panaginip ko kanina, may hinahanap akong tao at ang nakatatawa lamang ay sa realidad ni hindi ko na inaasahan pa naman na mahanap o makita siya. Nakita ko na naman ang sarili ko na sinusubukang hanapin ulit ang taong iyon. Masaya na siguro sana kung nalaman ko ang ending, malas lang dahil maaaring wala na o hindi ko na lamang maalala pa ang kasunod. Paasang panaginip.

Hey! Hey! You! You! You didn't get the job, pre!

Akala ko talaga it will go smoothly, if not, then I will still be able to get it. But no. Akala ko lang pala yun. I really like that job, sayang. And I thought I am the best fit for the job, Medyo confident pa naman ako. Oh well, alam ko naman an Kapag di nation nakukuha young gusto nation ibig sabihin lang noon there's something better in store for us. O di kaya naman pwedeng not now, pwedeng intay lang muna. Si God kasi He wants the best for us, He doesn't want us to settle for less.

Isa pa, maybe He is preparing us for something bigger, maybe it' even beyond what we are expecting and dreaming for ourselves. I suddenly remembered this talk about how our Lord works through seasons. The speaker said that He may not give it to you yet because He's going to give you something better in the future but for now, He wants you to be prepared for it. He wants you to be able to try different things first. In my case, siguro gusto niyang alamin ko kung sigurado na ba ako sa gusto kong gawin sa buhay. I think He wants me to explore, He wants me to know and enjoy other things to and that when I am finally where/who I want to be malalaman ko na hindi lang ako sa iisang bagay dapat magfocus; na mararaming bagay pa akong pwede at kayang gawin.

Heto naman ako ngayon, unti-unti kong natutuklasan kung saan ang gusto kong puntahan. E 'yon lang syempre, I still have a long way to go before I get there. Alam ko rin na hindi dapat ako matakot kasi nandyan Siya palagi to help and guide me. He is my map. He is my path. And he is my light. All I have to do is listen, always pray, and have faith in Him.

Panimula my face! Haha. Sa wakas ay natuloy rin ang paggawa ko ng panibagong blog. (Yehey! Masanay ka na dahil mahilig talaga maglagay ng unsolicited comments sa loob ng parentheses and nagmamay-ari ng blog na ito)

To be honest, this is not my first time to use this blogging platform. I actually had an old account here in Tumblr which I stopped using several months ago. The reason? Well let’s just say that I want to keep all the drama there and start anew. Ang arte ‘di ba? Even though I don’t use that account anymore, I decided to keep it anyway since there were a lot of memories posted in there. But enough about that old account. I’ll be posting my journal entries here, well just some of it. So yeah. Hello, World!

[Standing outside Matt's house, on his driveway, standing behind words written in chalk saying: "Will you go out with me?" holding flowers] Here goes nothing.. [he said as he pulled out of his phone and texted Matt asking for him to come outside]