May 9
so i might be the character with my deadname
this is not actually all that worrying i'm on book two of five and no one important's died yet!
apart from the ghosts. if you want to count the ghosts.
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so i might be the character with my deadname
this is not actually all that worrying i'm on book two of five and no one important's died yet!
apart from the ghosts. if you want to count the ghosts.
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i vividly remember hallucinating in my source. i remember seeing my little brother's image in the corner of my room and knowing it wasn't real because my brother was dead. because this ghost was begging me to save him and blaming me for not being there for him when he needed it the most.
this body doesn't get visual or auditory hallucinations as far as we're aware, but there's still the nagging feeling in the back of my mind that i should be seeing him, that i am seeing him despite there being nothing. it's a peculiar feeling. i'm not sure if i would be more relieved if one day i finally ended up hallucinating him again or if the feeling went away completely. may the universe grant me freedom because this mind sure is a prison.
#fictive
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Coincicanons: I currently kin like four different ghost characters? And each character’s dad fucking sucks (well only three of them canonically have dads we see but I REMEMBER THE FOURTH ONE OH BOY) i also kin like three different characters who’s families just locked them up for days at a time :)
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....huh.
So. I might be the ghost form of okarun????????
Haven't kinfirmed the regular okarun yet. Which is kinda a bummer. But uh. Part of it is definitely there I guess. Damn.
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https://www.tumblr.com/fictionkinfessions/790789214795104256/to-everybody-from-my-source-especially-sun-and?source=share
To Bloodmoon, I've personally gotten over my death. I understand your side. It was what you were built to do and it was what you knew how to do, and thats not your fault.
And tbh being a ghost in a metal husk is kinda cool ngl-
-A Dazzle Deer fictive.
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I always get so sad when I start to actually kinda think about my source. I miss the other ghosts, I miss Sam and Jay, I miss the my family. There was always like a barrier preventing me from communicating with the people I cared about (the fact that I was literally dead didn’t help) and now they’re all gone. I would stay in that house for forever if it means I could have my people back.
-Trevor Lefkowitz fictive
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i feel really really bad about being mad at my source family, who i wont name since i know a lot of them frequent this blog. I see them.
Im mad. Im mad i was hurt. Im mad i was killed. Im mad i was kept stuck as a ghost. Im mad he killed so many people because of my death. Im mad no one helped. Im not mad no one saw, because everyone saw, they just didnt see.
Was i being dramatic? Was i being a crybaby? Was i? Didnt i deserve it? Hm? He hurt me and then he killed me and im trying so so hard to not be mad at him but i can still feel the pain i felt all those years ago as my skull was crushed and i tttturned to look him in the eye, sobbing and hurting, and he *laughed*, and his stupid dumb mean friends *laughed* at my death my *murder* and they ignored my cries for help because i was just being a stupid crybaby again.
Everyone else from my source has forgiven each other. "He regrets it" they say, "he was a troubled boy" "he repented for so long, cant you just give him this peace?" Why? When i get none? When all i get is hurt? You hurt me, why should i heal when im the one who's bleeding?
My birthdays coming up soon. Ill be so much older than when i died. Im mad. But im mostly sad. Im usually mostly sad.
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Canon pets game! ^^
I had Polterpup, and he was adorable ^v^
-Luigi (Super Mario Bros.)
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