#ghostly rambles

Because the Eye of Nidhogg resonants with the WoL when they met Estinien for the first time. The Eye that (iirc) only 'chooses' very specific kind of peoole for Azure Dragoon - If Estinien and to a lesser degree Alberic is anything to go by. Vengeful, angry people. People who have been hurt and are seeking revenge for it.

Personally, I'm of the headcannon that this is because Nidhogg (able to sense where his eye is and kinda feel things through it? Maybe even see through it) is trying to get those people worked up enough to possess them. Like with Estinien during the DRG 50 duty.

So what does it mean for a WoL who is also a Dragoon? Who has done that series of quests and had the Eye look at them and go:

"Ah yes. You. You too feel hatred and rage and pain enough that you could easily lose yourself over it. You want revenge for something, vengence. You want to make someone or something else hurt just as much as you do right now."

1. Sam affirming the boundaries between his hallucinations and reality by pressing on his hand scar like Dean taught him to..

Ooough it means everything to me.

A big brother still trying to save his little brother. A little brother trying to be saved.

2. I desperately wish that we could have seen more of Dean genuinely being at a loss to help Sam, trying to, failing, and sometimes- just sometimes, succeeding at showing how much he cares in spite of that. In his own awkward way. Not being good at it, getting angry at himself for that and even at Sam.

"You don't understand me" vs "But I'm really trying to"

"You can't help me" vs "But I need to"

3. Sam just wanting to be treated like a normal person, getting progressively frustrated when he has to both hide his symptoms of mental illness to be considered "safe" and reliable. This in spite of him already managing things fairly well, all things considered.

The endless frustration of "when will I be considered 'well enough' to be treated like a normal person.

And I'm 100% going to be a total nerd about the lore and make my players deal with both the silly death knight and the silly vampire.