- VENT -
I've been feeling very overwhelmed lately with my mental health/these disabilities and getting these accommodations for myself can make me feel like less of a person at times which ik isnt true..
My grandma is planning a casino girls trip and my mom felt left out the last time me n my cousin,aunt and grandma went out to Jersey together my aunt wasnt even supposed to go it was a trip for just me n my cousin (for graduation) now that my mom has an invite she says she doesnt wanna go…ok why the hell would you feel left out at a PLACE YOU DONT EVEN WANNA BE IN THE FIRST PLACE???? I keep hearing the same sht "I dont like being around people" I 1000% understand but what the hell happened to quality time?? so fuckin STOOOOPID
I'm tired of crying over this, it's not over disappointment just frustration cus why the hell did I end up w parents like this? My trainer lady was so fun n understanding.. I told her that I wish she was my mother, also I'm not saying my mom is terrible person by any means she said it herself that shes not a nurturing parent and plus my father not being in my life I feel alone alot of the time.
Kids are so incredibly grateful to have parents who actually understand them fr Plus i felt even more like crap because i have no friends in this state if not ever, things were always bound to go wrong i guess? It's hard to make friends now because people carry evil spirits with them and I'd rather be by myself than to deal w that drama. So I'm in this loop of despair and loneliness all the time-
