i kinda do wanna be a sexless entity. i didnt realize i could actually have that. i looked at what i knew was available based on my anatomy (clitoral release, mons reduction, labiaplasty (removal), hysterectomy, and maybe vaginectomy)
and it's not like that is necessarily wrong. i don't want phallo. i don't want scrotal implants. i don't want labia. i don't want the ability to become pregnant. i am sex repulsed.
but the fact that i could just say fuck it and go full nullsex is even more relieving to me. the idea of just. nothing. never needing to worry about it again. physically denying the pressure to have a normative intimate & sexual relationship or family structure.
at the same time it's a huge decision to make and i probably wont have medical clearance for a long time (if ever) but. idk. idk when the time is to contact a surgeon about this let alone for a double mastectomy w/o nipple grafts and body-sculpting (more pressing dysphoria).
and i dont even know who i would go to. is there even anyone with experience doing nullsex surgical transition on an ambiguously sexed body. has anyone done that yet
