Aug 7, 2025
the masculine urge to be feminine. the feminine urge to be masculine. do you get what i mean
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the masculine urge to be feminine. the feminine urge to be masculine. do you get what i mean
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π©· boy who's a girl who's a bunny boy who's a housewife who's a trans woman who's a trans man. That's a pretty decent encapsulation of how I feel about myself identity wise. My brain just switches on a dime between having big fat tits and a cute girly voice and just being a dumb bimbo, and having a soft flat chest with top scars and a throbbing boycunt that's begging to be mated with like the dumb bunny I am. And sometimes I'm just a busty bitch with top scars and massive tits at the same time and that's great too
feeling incredibly transgender on this fine evening
Signs from being younger that probably are signs of being trans:
Making a sock penis and wearing it in my room. Never admitting it, but wanting a penis.
Fantasizing that I was turned into a boy and choosing to stay that way.
Taking quizzes that claim to "guess your gender" and wanting to have the results say I was a boy.
This one makes me laugh, but pretending to be a boy when I would play on Club Penguin.
Really liking how I looked in our jazz band uniform which includes a men's dress shirt, dress pants, a tie, and a vest.
Signs in adulthood and right now that probably are signs of me being trans:
Buying a packer and really enjoying wearing it in public.
Loving the bulge my packer gives me and wanting to look at it all day long/wear it everyday.
Wanting a real penis.
I want a beard so bad.
Buying a binder and being frustrated that it didn't make me completely flat because I have a large chest. Kind of liking how it looked anyway when I was able to get over that and see that it did make my chest smaller.
Still fantasizing of being turned into a man and choosing to stay that way.
Going by he/him pronouns on here.
Changing my pronouns on Facebook to see it say "changed HIS profile picture" and seeing that I was listed as "brother" and "son" on my siblings and parents pages. (Changed it back out of fear of getting caught).
Changing my gender on Facebook to Male even though it's hidden.
Picturing myself in the future presenting as male with short hair, a beard, and having gotten top surgery.
I want to be a man.
AND YET I am still struggling with believing I am actually trans or that I should move forward with transitioning. There is so much that goes into this. Internalized transphobia. Inability to let go of my religion even if I don't necessarily believe because it's what I have known my whole life and all my friends are there. Religious trauma and being told that my being a woman is eternal and divine. Fear of disappointing my family and friends or confusing them/ruining our relationships. Messing with the status quo at almost 28 years old. Not being taken seriously. I probably should see a gender therapist.
I just really needed to get that all out. If anyone has any advice or ideas or maybe even just validation, I would really appreciate it.
idk if i ever can find out my gender and sexuality. i lowkey feel that they are deeply connected, and it's hard for me to determine whether i'm exclusively attracted to women and just get gender envy from men and i'm just socialised to wanting their approval. also do i want to be manly because i like women or do i have this man part in me? ehhhhhhhhhhhh life is hard, maybe it would be easier if i had more labelled lgbtqia friends (i mean most of them is unlabelled or questioning too lmao)
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"are you a boy or a girl?"
I'm a cat and I'll bite you if you touch me, that's all you need to know
as someone who isn't a binary trans boy and can't really fully settle into one gender identity, there's something poetic about finally wanting to wear skirts and not feeling like wanting to crawl out of my skin every two seconds of it
Roleplaying as Shakky made me understand that I do want to be an hot older woman
But roleplaying as Rosinante made me understand that I like being a non-binary Twink
But roleplaying as Yamato made me understand that I like being a feminine guy
Which, basically, I want to be a feminine looking guy, that's also quite androgynous enough so when I'm older, I can also pass as a hot old woman
