Sometimes I feel stupid for crying over the chance of not getting an 8 in GCSE maths while others are worried about passing or not getting into 6th form/college.
Other times I remember that if I don't get an 8. I won't get into a level further maths and thay essentially ruins my entire goal.
I've known I wanted to go to Oxford University since I was in year 7/year 8. Oxford wants further maths for both potential career paths I want.
If I don't get into fm the entire thing I've been working towards for years will have been for nothing as my chances of acceptance will have drastically lowered.
Because sure they won't be 0, fm isn't a direct requirement but they heavily recommend it, most if not all applicants will be doing further maths a level. And that lowers my chance no matter how good my extracurriculars are (whether or not those are good enoigh is another debate entirely).
Oxford is highly selective so falling short on one major part almost entirely decides your acceptance.
And what happens when my entire dream comes crushing down almost entirely before I can even apply.