#gavin macleod

STACKEDNATURAL ⇉ 212.5/327 (part 1)

Crowley is / was an attractive ginger man born in Canisbay, Scotland as Fergus Roderick Macleod, where he worked as a drunken tailor for most of his miserable life before making a crossroads deal with a demon for an extra 3 inches below the belt - so that he’d be in the “double digits” he claimed.

I still want to someday see curly, ginger-haired Crowley in all of his glorious, gangly-limbed sarcasm and wasted potential doing stupid tailor things while he drinks his life away and curses the circumstances and his mother and his son, as he makes a dumb deal with the devil because ‘why not?’ Probably wasn’t sober, probably didn’t think it was real anyways, but those extra 3 inches gave him new perspective.

I want to see him using witchcraft to bring misfortune on the townspeople who shunned him his entire life, I want to see him be petty, watching their little world burn with a bottle of booze in his hand.

I want to see Crowley as Fergus - as the wild child of the witch that grew to despise the world for his lot in it; he was nearly sold for three pigs, he was taught how to make people choke on their own intestines with a hex bag before the age of 8 years old, he learned how to juggle, he made a deal with a demon for 3 inches, he died bloody in a ditch at the age of 63 after living an unfulfilled life.

But there’s so much story to be told there, and I think we all deserved to see even just an episode depicting some of his human life - the events that made him who he was throughout the show. I think we deserved that beautiful character arc as he went from being a hurting human boy to a hateful, lousy man, to the King of the Crossroads, to the King of Hell itself, to working with an Angel, then back to a pathetic almost-human, to saving the Winchesters as a final act- it truly is a perfect circle of a character arc.

- s10 with Dean: he would spend all of his time with Dean and then wanted him dead when he leaves him (and then he tried to get Cas to kill him lol). He lets Dean do whatever he wants even if he hates it (like going to obnoxious karaoke bars) and only stops him when he really has to (breaking into a fight at the karaoke bar).

- s12: when he and Castiel are trying to find Lucifer and Cas complains that they have been together every second of the day since they started looking for him, and that Crowley never stops talking. Crowley seems to know and take pride in this. Later, Crowley agrees to fight Lucifer with Castiel, only after it’s said that Cas would be hopelessly fighting and dying alone.

Then the whole human blood addiction thing, and “I deserve to be loved!” He’s just clearly someone very lonely. This makes Sam and Dean’s choice to torture him by keeping him in solitary confinement especially targeted.

And how Crowley is someone who enjoys luxuries and exorbitant displays of wealth because he lived in poverty and had to climb social ranks. Rowena went through the same and does this too, and is usually seen at fancy hotels and galas. They both try (and fail) to recruit loyal followers with covens and demons and ultimatums.

And also just the fact that Crowley didn’t abandon Gavin (just abused him over and over for years). Gavin only leaves home because his parents died. He also says that Crowley didn’t let him leave for school.

And this conversation between them:

Gavin: “‘Why do I hate you?!’”

Crowley: “I mean, I beat you, starved you, beat you some more, woke up hungover, and yeah, I beat you. In all fairness, I didn’t really have any role models. My mother was a witch.”

Gavin: “I grew up thinking—knowing I was nothing. Less than nothing.”

which is pretty much an exact argument that Crowley and Rowena have, seasons later. (Also something to note that even as a human, he had addiction issues).

Crowley also: attempts to raise Amara, and expresses interest in wanting to raise Jack (all for his self-interest, but still).

I can’t remember his name but I do remember there was a boy that Rowena raised, and that she loved him like a son, unlike her actual son.

Also interesting to mention he makes Kevin think his mother is dead, but he kept her alive and never actually intended to kill her. He easily killed Kevin’s girlfriend, but not his mother.

Rowena hated Crowley because he was a reminder of the worst time in her life. She seemingly had no relationship with her parents, either.

And when she’s back in his life, he actually tolerates her for a lot longer than I think anyone would. He’s really hoping to have some sort of relationship with her. These scenes also happen when Dean is with Mary again, and Dean’s line about how he feels about her really stuck out to me: he hates her, but she’s his mother.