#future lives

Cross-posted from my dreamwidth entry. Link directly in the title.

In the time spent in the alterhuman community, in particular to the therian/kin that dealt with exomemories from other lives, I've come to observe something critical--many carried various exotrauma.

My belief is that a part of the reason reincarnation happens is to provide us a chance to seek closure in our other lives or heal the wounds we carry. Perhaps we are tied to this cycle due to unfinished business, whether positive or negative.

I don’t identify as the eastern ocean dragon of my past; thus, it is my kardiatype. However, I have memories, instincts, likes, and dislikes based on that dragon. There are pains I've felt that I'm still trying to determine if they might be connected to that dragon's own loss, but they don’t hurt me as much, as I am able to observe from a distance. However, this comes down to the identification and separation of the part of the self. From the beginning of my realization of being nonhuman, I already identified as who I am: the dream dragon.

Perhaps this can help others as well, in finding that separation and distance. This is also considering that we have people within the community who can interact with their other lives as separate beings. This couples with the Chinese belief in spirits and souls (hun and po)[1] and how transmigration works with each incarnation: you only move on with a part of it, leaving the rest behind. Essentially, one is different from their past or other selves (as time can be seen as non-linear to some).

Another key thing is finding closure. Perhaps the various memories are vying for attention because of unresolved loose ends.

Writing down stories, or making any sort of creation work for each and every one of those lives might help. I believe there is truth and fact in fiction. Many alterhuman that I've observed use writing as a form of interaction with their selves. I do it too, finding temporary joy in worlds where I can be myself, and it serves as an outlet to work through some inner conflicts or other dissent. Memories become somewhat easier to handle once I put them down as something concrete that I can work with. If emotions are causing suffering, mindfulness is a good practice to counter that—acknowledge and accept the emotions, and then learn to lessen their impact on one's being. This deals with more psychological territory, but the same techniques and methods are not restricted to a single subject area. There are numerous resources available, but here's a small excerpt:

Ride out Waves of Emotions--Be Mindful Normalize Emotions Observe Anticipate Emotions will get bigger/intensify Visualize Ride/surf the emotion wave/tide. Ride it out instead of blocking it. Let it flow. Gently let go; it's okay to release the grasp. Shift focus; practice mindfulness; notice the physical surroundings. Be attentive and curious. Be Nonjudgemental Acceptance

Additionally, having something grounding or anchoring is good. Anything, even a stuffed toy, a pet, a place, another sapient being, or even things beyond—that's a bit like speaking of faith, ironic considering I'm discussing grounding in the unseen and forces beyond.

All of these can to be utilized together. Comfort allows room to break down, grounding offers a point to return to should the mind becomes lost in the memories and emotions. While all the other exercises allow confronting the memories, they help in working through emotions by offering a new perspective.

There is also something many East Asians do—they pay homage to their ancestor, a common practice is setting up ancestral tablets or spirit tablets. Offerings and prayers are made to these tablets as a way to connect with and show respect to one's ancestors. For me personally, I have seen this practice extend to one's own other lives.

In the end, the mind is what matter. Manifestation--your will to see your other lives' chapters be closed. I wish everyone all the best in finding that inner peace.

no one will remember you

no one will have known you

i’m mourning that death now

no longer mourning your physical one

the one that happened

but this next one

where no one knows your laugh

your words

your person

your love

where no one will know how much it hurt me

when you passed

how for years i still cried

and just when it starts to stop

Not remember things in the same direction all the time, not remember them until later? Experience things twice two different ways? Remember some stuff twice? It’s okay, you’re just living your favorite.

I’ll explain.

Humans love their stories, and love to come back to their favorites again and again to savor them, even going so far as to jump to their favorite parts ahead of time, or to read some parts over and over again or flip through and check between two passages back and forth. You’re doing this with your life, because you love it so much.

Good day Anon! And thanks for the question?

actually that HakYona smut fic I haven’t finished nor uploaded yet will discuss this but anyways

Yes on the first question, though my fanfic pegged at it when Hak turns 30 and Yona is 28. And Yona’s Queen of Kouka. As for how it happens, just see this post. Let’s just say when two beautiful people who loved each other for so long and are really meant for each other get rather thirsty… *ehem*. Said fanfic will have the graphic details [please forgive me my mind is veering off to places I will not speak of as Tumblr might flag this post *ehem*]Though I really dunno when I will upload that, I’m just mired in real life work as of the moment.As for their first baby… I’ll just let that fic tell you. Will post it immediately when I got the chance to edit it!