#frederick.mp3

Mom I had to pay $250 a month just to stay in the basement without you guys kicking me out when I was depressed and unmediated. You treated me like a burden constantly and never helped with my room and I had to constantly do chores. And when I couldn’t do college without having adhd medication it was like “whatever :)” I also had to work and go to college at the same time. So I got tf out and now you’re like “you never spend time with me!!!”

“We’ll help you with a car but you need to save 10k first”

she and another coworker came to my wedding. she had fun. she got to know my other friends and some of my family and told me what a wonderful time she had and how lucky she felt to be invited.

but then she never had me over. she stopped trying to get closer to me. i finally asked her if something was wrong and she was like no wtf, i love you you're great.

now she's only nice to me when other people aren't around. and i only have a good day when she's not there.

when everyone else has left for the day and we're closing she always says "you're my rock. i rely on you so much. you're the best" and its like???? am i????? you're my storm. you're my heart wrenching walking reminder of my loneliness. you're a painful rejection i feel every single day. you're the cold and the dark. you're the girl i finally thought could be a real friend to me after waiting years and years. and to be honest, when she's not there, my job is fine.