Transparent.
The dictionary defines transparent as: 1. (of a material or article) allowing light to pass through so that objects behind can be distinctly seen. 2. easy to perceive or detect. Transparent is the only way I feel as if I can describe my emotions. I feel vunerable at the dispute of happiness. I feel worthless and so delicate. I feel as if the world can view my feelings and use it aggainst me in order to better itself. Why? Life is crazy, and I hope those reading do not feel alone. I am not depressed. I am not sad and definitley not suicidal. This blog is for those with thoughts and emotions that people cannot put into perspective. Because, most of the time... I don't even know how I am feeling. Transparency is an emotion, and the fact that it is not listed under different emotions is a problem. Why do we have to either be sad, happy or both? Because I know for a fact I am neither. The life that is given to me is beautiful, but i am not a regular teen with the regular emotions. Or am I? I am not alone but however, I feel lonley. The emotions overtake my body of feeling worthless, and i fight everyday to ensure my mind I am worth something. Failure is not an answer and I'll try everyday until I succeed. Its the mind over matter that I cannot understand but learning for me is just the beginning. I forgive those that see my emotions and use them aggainst me, and I'll forget the thoughts in my mind telling me i am not good enough. Because, fuck. I am good enough.
